to love is indeed to be patience, whether it's waiting for the person or for a certain moment
to love is indeed to be hopeful, even there are lots of things and moments that lead you to think to gave up
to love is indeed to be optimistic, because the only way to nurture this kind of thing is to cherish this warm feeling really really carefully
but to love is indeed to let go, because you fully understand that the love you have deep inside you sometimes act way out of your control. it could radiate uncontrollably and you have no idea how to prevent that event and let alone stop it from pouring. the hardest part is, perhaps, the love you spilled having a hard way return to you. if you lucky enough, which is in rare occassion, you could receive way mooooore than you spilled. but there is a huge chance none returned, or perhaps returned but felt different, ain't fit right in or not even feels like yours to keep.
but that doesn't mean it's wrong let alone take it as a mistake. the love you give, intentionally or not, is still love, whether returned or not.
love is such an abstract and weird thing to begin with, i'm not even sure it can be counted. but surely i'm pretty sure it's there only to be felt. and just be it, to be present, t9 be acknowledge, to be validated that you are the one who should be grateful for having this kind of thing, thos kind of feeling. not everyone have the ability to give it, or let alone have it.
if you have it, congrats! you're one of a kind! so worry less about how to give it or how can it be accepted or returned, or even better, don't even worry about it! just enjoy while it lasts and acknowledge every inch of it. cause you surely aware nothing is permanent, and so does love and feelings 😄😊
6.56 pm 14 oct 2023, ditulis sambil tiduran nunggu isya di kos ciapus. kondisi saat ini hujan, saya menunggu hujan reda karena mau ke dramaga. ngidam bebek madura dramaga tp ini hujannya makin derassssss. jadi gatau nih nasib selanjutnya gimana huf. hari ini tuh banyak tugas dadakan. akhir akhir ini banyak juga yg gak terduga dan ketidakpastian, kaya inisial i alias iiiiiiiiiiapahayo wkw sekian dulu soalnya saya mau fokus nunggu yg gapasti itu JUJUR LANGSUNG MUNCUL ahahah apakah ini the power of manifesting or yaudah universe iseng aja atau kebetulan ya ya pasti kebetulan. tp karena kemunculannya blank space di bagian hopeful dan optimistoc tadi bisa keisi deh yay
tp semoga kita tidak menyesal kata niki "whether it's free will or predestined clearly i'm not learn my lesson even noooow"
sekarang udah 7.04 dan masih hujan dan masih nunggu. emang ya hodup mungkin akan selalu tentang ketidakpastian dan menunggu, and our mission is to find a way to enjoy it☺👍