#aliche

[regal-rosebuds]

Hi. It's me again. Hmm… As for the signature, it's a good suggestion, I just didn't think it was possible to do that. If there is still a the starry sky among the people who write to you, then I will sign it. But if busy, then it's okay, I'll find ways to identify myself. Oh, I get it, discord is very popular right now. I even met misunderstandings about all sorts of servers here. And it's good that you have someone in your life who you trust like this, I'm glad they can help you with this. Your knights? Are they from imaginary caregivers or are they some kind of individual people? I just managed to find out a little bit about the first ones. And I hope that you were able to sleep well, and that you have a pleasant day.

Also... I'm still shy to take off my anonymity mask, but you can call me Aliche.

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ꔫ Nice to meet you, Aliche! I’d be happy for you to have 🌌!

ꔫ Yes, like many communities, there’s a lot of disagreements about what is right, wrong, etc.

ꔫ When I say Knights, I mean caregivers and babysitters I have. I typically mean real people in my life, however, I sometimes refer to fictional caregivers as Knights as well! It’s just a nice way to personalize my experience, since I’m royalty!

ꔫ I did get some sleep and had a pretty okay day! I got my nails done with a big bow on them!

ꔫ I hope you had a wonderful day as well!

[marshmallowprotection]

Hello… I wanted to ask… can I ask for some comfort? I mean, in a situation where you feel that you are unworthy of your loved one. This… The fact is that I have a similar feeling towards Jihyun. In the sense that… often I have no interest in anything, I am not so refined, not so elegant. I know feelings for a dear person often help us make efforts and become better, but… looks like… it doesn't always work with me, and I can stay in my worthless version much longer than usual. And it seems like I understand that here she is the real version of me without pretense - the same worthless one, without goals, desires, with a sense of indifference. I think I could endlessly offer him my masks and images, but… it really undermines trust. And… in general, just save me ahah. I understand that this request may seem specific or strange, so if it offends you or makes you feel uncomfortable, then you can leave it unanswered. In the end, I just wanted to throw it out to someone.

Jihyun... Ever since the day that he met you, he knew in his heart that there was something special about you. He wasn't able to figure out what that was for a very long time. He knew that you cared about him and that you were crazy enough to help him when you didn't have to. You are a good person in his eyes and sometimes he feels as though he's not good enough for you. He knew that he wasn't going to be able to give you what you needed when he left you to find himself for those two years.

He knew that he wasn't the kind of man that he needed to be to be there for you. That doesn't mean that he didn't want to be there. He wanted to be there by the side of the person he cared about. He just knew that he needed to find himself before he ever let his heart open again.

It wouldn't be fair to you or to him to rush into something when he knew that he needed to heal himself before his heart was ready. So, when you come to him and tell him that you have been feeling the same way as him, it pains him but he understands.

He gets it. He knows what you mean by this. It makes sense that you knew him better than anyone else because it was something that you were experiencing just the same way. It makes sense that you would have such a passionate heart because you wore it on your sleeve even if you were afraid.

There are many things that he could say to make it right or make it better, but he knows that that's not going to be the same as what you need. What you need is somebody to support you and remind you that you are worth the trouble that you think you are. You are worth the kindness and sacrifice that people want to give to you. You can give the world to people but you deserve to have the world in return. 

When you cry, weep, and hold onto him... he knows that there’s only so much he can do to help your bleeding heart.

“I’ve got you, love. I know it hurts... i know you’re struggling. I wish I could do so much more for you... but I hope that holding you... by giving your soul a chance to breath... that you’re able to remember that you’re loved. You always will be a fire in my heart. You will always be perfect for me... I promise you that. I promise you will always be loved by me.”

[marshmallowprotection]

I'm sorry, but it's me again. Actually, I just want to shout a little in honor of the fact that today is Jihyun Kim's birthday. It's embarrassing for me, but today I want to tell everyone I know at least a little about my love for him, and you seem to treat it normally when people come to you just with random thoughts. Words cannot express how much I love him. I think he is one of those people for whom I can fly to the moon, get a star from there, climb any mountain in the world, and do anything that seems impossible to me. I think it would not be a lie to say that he appeared in my life at a very right moment and gave me a lot. I know that I can give him less than him, only my infinite love, gentleness, desire to protect him in front of everyone, being on his side, devotion and my heart, soul, ability to love. And I know that I can teach him less than he can teach me, that my degree of strength is less than his, but damn it, how do I like to imagine how I hug him, how I tell him the cherished "I love you", sometimes even how I kiss him or bury my palm in his hair, how we talk about different things and enjoy time with each other, and even though I can't feel it all 100% no matter how hard I try, but I start to think at such moments that I really love them. I have a violent fantasy and it is not difficult for me to imagine something, it is only difficult to make it true for myself (I know it is difficult to explain it, it just really feels like a fantasy, and I understand the unreality of this). But God, how grateful I am for him! {Sorry, I got too carried away, haha, apparently I love him too much. It just needed time to say it to someone else. Thank you for reading, and I'm sorry to bother you if this happened}

I'm happy to hear that it feels like you've got a safe place here. That's what I try to Foster in this environment. I think that's the most beautiful thing that you can have about characters. The way that you can feel like they could understand you in a way that nobody else does. It helps you grow in some ways and it helps you cultivate what you want for yourself in real life.

[littlemessengers]

Ah… Seven… it's Aliche.

I'm sorry, I just discovered your answer. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry that I noticed it so late! T_T

You've probably already had time to spend not only Christmas, but also the New Year. I hope the New Year was pleasant for you. Eh… It's great if at least no one forced you to work that day. I also hope that this year has started on a nice note for you.

Aliche… lovely Aliche…

Some divine evil must be trying to stop us from talking… that must be why we keep missing each other’s messages…

So tragic…

Is this what they call…

♡ forbidden ♡ love ♡

We’re way past Christmas and New Years now… wait… it’s almost Valentine’s Day! OMG !!!!

EEK

I don’t have any Valentine’s plans… so sad…

-707☆

[littlemessengers]

Hey, Agent 707, this is Earth and Aliche! Did you know that today is the first day of winter? In general, I don't like winter, but its first day always feels special. So congratulations on the first day of winter, and the holidays are coming soon too. I hope your winter will be pleasant, bring a good mood and will not be too cold.

Well, also greetings from me to the rest of the RFA, a warm winter and a wonderful mood and time for interesting and fun things that bring comfort.

P.S [for admin]: I also wish the same to the admin of this wonderful blog, you are doing an amazing job, thank you for it ❤️

☆RECEIVING☆INTERPLANETARY☆MESSAGE☆

whoa… looks like travelling through space made this message late huh…! so sad… I should have gotten it on the first…

oh well !! I’m over it lalala~

I’ll tell you a little secret just for you… I’m not really a big winter fan either… I know I know >.> I have the whimsy for it don’t I! you probably think I love playing in the snow and drinking… phd CHILI !!! (phd chili is when you boil phd pepper and it becomes… hot !!)

anyway… I don’t have time to have any fun in the winter !! poor little me !!! all I get to do is work boohoohoo… Miss Vanderwood doesn’t even bring me treats while I work like a GOOD maid or even mom she just nags at me to keep my soda away from the stove and stay in my room! so mean !!!!!!!

Christmas is different though and at least I can look forward to that…! it’s one of the only days Miss Vanderwood doesn’t mind if I slack off a little bit so sometimes I get to watch a movie! and if I’m REALLY good and ahead of my work she’ll even let me leave the house and THEN I can meet up with my bf Tom or even the rfa! One year I played Santa all day and I drove around in my red baby with the hat on delivering presents to all the little kiddies…

I hope this year I have a good Christmas and no matter what holidays you celebrate dear anon, they go sooooooso well too! together we can defeat this evil season… I believe it!

thank you for staying with us this year and I hope you’ll still be here next year! have a good one~

-707☆

[informantvanderwood]

Life at work... I've never made that choice for myself, but... it sounds like a pretty complicated life. After all, you're actually connected to your job. Not handcuffs of course, but it can also be uncomfortable. I hope one day your life will give you something else besides work.So you are... Are you saying that I need to keep a distance with you? But it's so hard to do, because you and he are so interesting, so deep and so good. A secret information... I swear I can quell my curiosity and not get into it too much. We can just talk about neutral topics, such as the weather. And the danger... I understand that this is important for both of you, but it's my personal choice to try to get closer to Seven and you. And if anyone is responsible for this, it's only me.

Handcuffed to my job LMFAO! You could say that I am... metaphorically of course. I'm in so deep, I'll never be able to leave without consequences. I know too much. So I either keep working for this company forever or.....

And yes. I do think it would be best if you kept your distance. Though I can answer none-work related questions. I'm not very good at small talk though.

You can try to get closer to me... or Seven... but I don't think either of us would let it happen. I'm not about to put an innocent person into possibly life threatening danger.

[informantvanderwood]

In your life, it's time to write a book or make a movie. It is so interesting, but at the same time bitter. I understand that you are just working together. But you care about each other quite a lot, and it's so great!

Oh… him… watching someone? Well, it really can be a bit of a hindrance when he needs to focus on something. You know, I don't really know much about all this, but I could call him or help him with his work from a distance. How do you like this idea? Well, or at least make sure that he doesn't get distracted very often.

Writing a book about my life? It's really not that interesting tbh. I just work day and night. And after that I work more. And then I work some more.

Me? Caring about Seven? No way!! Hahahaha! That's a good joke lmao

Hm. I'm not sure you could... be of help to him. Don't take this the wrong way, I'm sure you mean well. But getting close to Seven or to me, means getting close to danger. Not only that, but we work with highly classified information.

[informantvanderwood]

Oh, it seems you have very strong positions that are extremely difficult to change. But you know, there's a positive side to having beliefs. Oh… well… I know this may sound strange, but what feelings do you feel from being so strongly connected with Seven? Does it offend or offend that at some point in your life she began to revolve around his life too? As well as the fact that they mostly learn about you from him? I know it sounds like something insignificant or like the kind of question people ask when they don't know what to say. And as you said, it's not necessary that you answer it, and it will be fine.

The thing is. I cannot change my opinion, I'll never be able to live freely again. But that's fine, it's what I had to do lol

Strongly connected to Seven?? LMAO NAH! We're only workmates! That's it!

Abt that lady he's been watching on the CCTV monitor... I'm not sure. It's obvious she's important to him. But she shouldn't be! He knows he can't have her. Not only that, but he's been so distracted that he's hardly done any of the work he's supposed to. I'm running out of excuses as to why it's not done yet.

He knows how the company fucking operates. He knows if he doesn't get his shit together and get back to what he actually needs to do, he might end up in a dumpster. And me too.

Sorry for my rambling I'm just. Concerned. Maybe I'm... worried for Seven? EW! NAH! NO WAY LMFAO