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[jordynslefteyebrow]

aliewa replied to your post:

Lol what did you say?

That’s the best part! I haven’t even said anything in days. The last thing I tweeted about her was the shit w/ her dad. I've never even @’d her either lmao

[lovesjustachemical]

aliewa replied to your post:

Does your insurance cover botox for pain? I know...

I’ve actually talked with my neurologist about this and, generally, any insurance company will have you exhaust the more common/less expensive options first before trying it.

Oh, duh. Forgot about that little snag. Yeah, my mother has excruciating migraines and she knows what will work for them, but they always force her to go through like three drugs that she knows won’t be effective until she even has the privilege of paying a really high co-pay for the medication she’s been saying all along she needs. That is, when the first step isn’t “have you tried breathing reducing your stress???” Like, yeah, lol, maybe if she wasn’t chronically ill in a country that never even talks about the fact that disabled people are expected to subsist on less than minimum wage, we could talk about feeling less stressed.

But for me, medication would probably work. Excedrin makes me feel better most times, and if I had something stronger for when it doesn’t work, I’d probably be set. I just have this anxious jittery feeling when I even think about dealing with an insurance company because I have this big negative impression from my family experiences that they don’t actually want to help patients and will trick you into paying for the thing yourself if they can. But we’ve just had some big horror stories in our family.

[lovesjustachemical]

aliewa replied to your post:So I had the realization today that I don’t need...

YOU FINALLY UNDERSTAND YASSSS

Yassssss, and sometimes it's still hard with the school thing, and it's not that I think certain people are bad people - but if they're going to have that mindset, I hope they can respect me not thinking we have much to talk about.

And I've finally realized that the world is a big place full of good people and I don't have to cling to abusers and people who enable them. And also that I don't have to be one of those people. (It's scary how much I wanted to believe someone could do it "one time" and "not mean it", but that's not how these things work and I think I can finally accept it? It's also scary how much the last two years and my childhood blend together when I have nightmares. I traded one person I was tiptoeing around for another, and now I'm not afraid of either of them anymore and I'm trying to keep my life healthy for the first time. But it's new.)

[lovesjustachemical]

aliewa replied to your photoset:So I got into a discussion about what it would...

I can’t find that corset and I’m so sad

Really? Nooooooooo! The most logical conclusion would be that I stole it, but alas, that is not the case. Do you currently have an awkwardly big one like the one I had for Spring Awakening, then? 

And we have corset fittings here in second year and I really hope they've got one like that lying around somewhere. I love corsets that actually fit, but if it feels like I'm going to fall out of it, it's just awkward. Especially if that's all I'm wearing. *cough*Spring Awakening*cough*

[jordynslefteyebrow]

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