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I can't talk to people for shit. I'm very shy, shy to the point where I will literally start crying. I just can't handle being in a room with people I don't know because I think that they're all silently judging me. One time, my dad overreacted at a car wash because when our truck was in it, we ended up bumping into a car that got stuck and we had minimal to no damage to our vehicle, but my dad insisted that all the bumps and such he caused to it throught various years were new thanks to the car wash. My oldest sister was a lawyer and my parents didn't have their phones on them, so my dad forced me to ask this guy outside for his phone to call her for help. I couldn't even talk to the guy. The whole time I felt he was thinking "What's this girl doing here? Wow, she can't even ask a question. How did she make friends in the first place- if she has any." And I just continued to stand there and stutter out pieces of my question. My dad then came over, hit my arm anditstillhurtthenextday, and then I proceeded to cry as I continued to stutter. Turns out, the guy could speak Spanish, so my dad ended up asking him for the phone and still had me call. He then walked back to my mom and I could hear him call me "useless".
I would have to say that it I think about my relationship a lot and there are times I feel like lovely deserves someone better and would leave me, because to be honest, I'm a huge piece of emotional wreckage and the thoughts come at random so we could be chatting and they may not know but i'm thinking "Oh god, please don't leave me. I'm sorry for being a huge piece of shit" and start tearing up, even if I've done nothing wrong, whichihaven'tdoneanythingwrongyet,andiwanttokeepitthatway.
There is also my constant fear of thinking about what my family and peers' reactions will be on the day I tell them about my sexuality and gender. I just honestly think that I'll instantly be rejected by the people who are supposed to be there and protect and care for me, and that I'll lose my friends.
Guys and gals, loving Green Day, loving yourself, and the way you speak may get you a free ticket. Probably not since the free tickets will be received first by another person, and hopefully just for them. butinstantturnontho
I have to see Green Day live, make a band/record some sort of violin cover album thing of different songs, be a well known artist and be able to just have it as my job,
Green Day, lovely, all of these stupid wonderful dorks, My Chemical Romance, tattoos, art, chocolate, Dr. Pepper, Supernatural, music in the form of cds, band merch, drawing pens, blankets, tortas, tacos, barbacoa, long sleeved shirts, pajama pants, music, guitars, violins, drums, vocals, WWE, Marvel, Spider-man, Loki (AOA Loki and Avengers Loki to be exact), Muse, denim jackets, dim lights.
Lovely, Green Day, friends, myself, procrastination
LOVELY, GREEN DAY, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, SPIDER-MAN, ALL OF THESE STUPID WONDERFUL DORKS, band merch, lO KI, MUSIC, CDS, V I O L I N S
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