#almost seven

[heartofaspen]

what in the 6 years of improvement

[twistedangelboness]

national alert followed by three very loud thuds . Its seven in the fucking morning bruh .

[mxliv-oftheendless]

So.

It took me six hours, full of rock and techno music blasting in my ears on loop…

BUT MY THESIS DRAFT IS FINALLY DONE!!!

[outoflight]

Oct 2019 Praha, CZ    Quarter to Seven

[abducted-alienz]

SCREAMING CRYING AND TWIRLING MY FEET CUZ JAMIE IS OKAY!!! maybe no back but O K A Y! AND I PROBABLY CANT TALK TO THEM ANYMORE CUZ I CAME OUT WITH THE TRUTH RIPPP ERRR BUT YAYYY JAMIE IS ALIVE AND I HOPE THEY CAN BE ALRIGHT AND MAYBE THEYRE NOT OKAY BUT THEYRE ALIVE IS WHAT I MEAN BY THAT EVEN IF HE DOESNT WANNA BE HERE

[queen-scribbles]

I Am Going To Scream!!!!!

[elleroodles]

i hate crying and nothing reminds me more of that than having cried for the past six hours

[nonsunblob]

I yell in the tags a lot (example), so that’s usually where my latest life updates are, but a brief rundown - bear and I bought a house, we moved cities, I quit my soul-sucking DC corporate non-profit job and got a chill new research one, and I finally learned to drive and got my license. lots of big changes - most of them v. stressful - and i’ve been handling it mainly by burying myself online. but man even with all of these big life changes i’m in a much healthier spot mentally than i was a few months ago. i can’t believe i get home from work and I have energy to cook, garden, work on a little house project, or talk to neighbors, or relax over a beer or pot of tea in the yard, or maybe do some yoga or read with the cats. a few months ago my job demanded 120% of my energy and time - when I finally left the office at 7:30 pm my colleagues on the other side of the world would be getting to work and I would be expected to continue working, answering emails all night and over the weekend. i’ve read this phrase somewhere, but everyone in my office would wear their exhaustion and stress like badges of honor. and i always felt guilty for not wanting that for the rest of my life. but that post I linked to earlier, that brought it home for me. i choose to value my time and energy away from work. i choose to not have a ball of stress in my stomach all day and night. i choose to not be that hyper-ambitious, competitive DC climber. i’m very privileged to have the ability to make those moves and choices. and i’m still figuring it out, and working on instilling motivation and self-discipline - i have a long way to go. but i’m healthier and happier now, and building the life i want, every day.