okay, so. this pretty much goes without saying. but i need a real kick in the ass. stat. i need to stop wasting my parents money and actually take advantage of the opportunities given to me. definitely going to have to take summer classes, but i've fucked around enough this semester that, that is more than fair punishment. ughhhhh. i really should schedule an appt. with my advisor and see what i should do. but, what can i say? 'i need a fresh start'? i have had plenty chances. just want to withdraw from all my classes while there's still time and regroup, take summer classes and get serious. really don't want to live at home but beginning to think that the wrath of my parents is the only thing that can get me out of this slump currently. i really do hate myself, ugh. and how would i bring it up with my parents? oh god.