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[movedyoakkemae]

                                     BEFORE THE DAWN. 

private and selective multimuse, written by satan. featured muses are allison hargreeves, spencer reid, martha jones, and alex rider. 21+, mature themes apply. 

*personals, do not reblog.

[movedyoakkemae]

you take your father’s words [ “keep a strong hand. show ‘em who’s king.” ] with your mother’s words [ “just be yourself.” ], and you shape them to your own definition of what it means to be king [ “listen to the people who know best.” ]. still, you make sure to caution yourself against the mistakes that previous kings have made [ “absolute power corrupts absolutely.” ] because in order to make things right, in order to correct the mistakes your father has made [ “they were prisoners, weren’t they? his father tried to pretend that they were not, but even ben knew otherwise.” ], you need to make sure that you do not control like your father did [ “we have no say in our own lives. we’re living in a fairy tale that someone else wrote.” ].

                                          no one is to be trapped any longer.                                                [ “we are not our parents.” ].

             king benjamin florian guillory from disney’s descendants. written by satan.                       highly canon divergent. books, movies, and heacanons based.

personals, please do not reblog.

[jemilys-deactivated20201105]

—antonin artaud, lettres à génica athanasiou

[yoakkemae-moved]

The only person Alex trusts at MI6 is Smithers. He dislikes Blunt, is fairly neutral towards Mrs. Jones and Crawley, and he likes Ben but doesn’t trust him because Ben is a grunt -- he’s a cog in the machine. Smithers has been doing his absolute best to supply Alex with the tools that he needs to survive -- and has helped to save his life multiple times, so Alex does trust Smithers. He, probably, wouldn’t trust him with personal information, but he does trust Smithers. 

Case in point, when Alex ran away from the Pleasures to go around on his own, Smithers somehow ended up sending him a cellphone and other cool gadgets, and Alex trusted that it didn’t have a tracking device/feature for MI6 to find him solely because the note said that it didn’t. (That being said, the note did say that Smithers could track him, but only if Alex pressed certain buttons as a call for help). 

[yoakkemae-moved]

I haven’t technically added them her yet, but the reason why I think Allison would probably be the most accepting of Five and what he does/did in order to get back to the family is because she gets it. If she had been the one to go to the apocalypse and needed to kill people in order to get back home to the family and to Claire, she would have done it in a heartbeat. 

Hell, look at Allison v. the Swedes -- without hesitation, she Rumoured one of them into killing his own brother, and she didn’t look remorseful when it was done ( not over that -- for having Ray see it, yeah ). In fact, when it was happening, she looked... vindicated. She could have just as easily Rumoured them into leaving and never looking back, but she didn’t, and I think the fact that she escalated her Rumour after spending so much time not using her powers -- “I heard a rumour that you killed your brother” -- really speaks of both her pragmatic nature and just how much she cares for her own people and not so much anyone else. 

I say that, knowing that Allison wouldn’t go around killing innocent people ( unless she had to in order to protect her family re: the comics where she killed JFK ), but... Allison essentially spent a long time acting as if everyone were her NPCs because it’s not like Sir taught her that kind of empathy. It was only after she lost her daughter that she cared about changing herself and not using her powers anymore. Still, that sort of... way of thinking is hard to break. 

Again, I don’t think she’d go out of her way to hurt other people, but she’d do anything to protect the people she loves, and when she retaliates, she will be brutal about it. 

[chimis-changa]

Nova #2

[bellamysgriffin]

favorite doctor who quotes: 28/?

You don’t talk. You never say. Why not? I lied to you because I liked it. I could pretend. Just for a bit. I could imagine they were still alive underneath a burnt orange sky. I’m not just a Time Lord. I’m the last of the Time Lords. The Face of Boe was wrong. There’s no one else. What happened? There was a war. A time war. The last Great Time War. My people fought a race called the Daleks for the sake of all creation. And they lost. We lost. Everyone lost.

[yoakkemae-moved]

I know I haven’t been online, but… I might add Allison from TUA. 

[heartscribed]

ring ding dong ring ding dong ding. oh look, even more positivity coming from me ! if me referencing their song isn’t a clue on who this is going towards, i wanted to give @yoakkemae my sincerest love because satan is one of the many people that can level with me and be upfront with me about things, or at help me reason out my thoughts. also a… total life savor with icons ??? truly what a blessing satan is

also the best provider of t.aemin meme faces because i just need that in my life always

[sakuhai]

[forgttntime]

SO ANYWAYS I cannot literally function on Tumblr right now. This is kinda a DW centric server, but don’t let that deter you! (like for gods sake we nearly have all the hargreeves from TUA as companions) and we are most definetly crossover friendly. Tons of fun, tons of shennanigans, tons of (ic) drama. It’s fantastic.

SO IF YOU WANNA JOIN THE SERVER FEEL FREE.

Mutuals are welcome to joins. And if you’re a mutual and want a friend to join come on in. No pressure- its just where i’ve been writing cause I cannot function on tumblr right now and I do not know why. EDIT: don’t think if we’re mutuals enough. trust me if we’re mutuals we are good i swear\

[yoakkemae-moved]

How have you been dealing with those new pikachu?

‘ they all decided that they were going to stay together as a pack on my friend’s pikachu island ! apparently they’re really getting along with the other pack there, so they’re all pretty happy ! ’

[yoakkemae-moved]

Satoshi, if you could learn any pokemon move what would you choose?

‘ any move ? oh man, but there’s so many great ones out there ! ’ satoshi scratches the side of his nose in thought, and a memory pops into his mind. ‘ maybe volt tackle ? i remember a few years back when pikachu and i decided to battle, and i somehow got charged with electricity, and we both volt tackle’d each other until i got too many electrical burns and had to stop, and that had been so cool ! ’

[lilplanty]

↖ is now accepting curious anons.

[leneemusing]

more prompts for your feels

“  what am i supposed to do when i can’t even trust my own mind?  ”  “  i have to believe death is the end. because all that waits for me in the afterlife is a debt of sin i don’t think could ever be paid off.  ” “  what do you see when you look into my eyes?  ”   “  it doesn’t always have to be you, you know?  your shoulders aren’t the only ones that can bear the weight of the world.  ”   “  i don’t think hearts break. shattered things can only be broken once. but torn things can be mended again and again until it’s all scars and stitching.  ” “  i can’t remember what it’s like to be truly wanted.  ” “  every time you look at me i feel invisible.  ” “  loneliness is a slow and cruel poison.  ” “  i’m afraid that if i let you see every side of me, you should shrink back in fear or disgust.  ” “  for once in your life, what is it that you want.  ” “  i’ve been wrapped in my sorrow for so long, i’m afraid i’ll feel too cold without it.  ” “  i just want to see you smile again.  ” “  can’t you stop running for one second?  ” “  i’ll be here. when you’re ready to talk.  ” “  being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.  ” “  don’t shut me out. please.  ” “  don’t look at me like that.  ” “  the world isn’t made up of heroes and monsters. just broken people balancing between the two.  ” “  i just wanted to do something good for once.  ” “  why can’t you tell me what’s wrong?  ” “  just trust me. please.  ” “  why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of?  ” “   you’re so worried about losing me/them you’re missing everything in front of you.  ”   “  i’m not leaving you.  ” “  you’re not alone. i’m here.  ” “  you see everyone so clearly except yourself.  ” “  don’t you understand? i love you. and nothing you’ve done, no matter how much of a monster you think you are, is gonna change that.  ” “  i find broken things interesting. maybe that’s why i like you so much.  ” “  i want to be whatever it is you think i am.  ” “  you see the good in everything. that’s why i like it when you look at me.  ” “  i’ll still be here when you wake.  ” “  i promise i’ll never hurt you again.  ” “  as long as i have you, the rest doesn’t matter.  ” “  what did they do to you?  ” “  i’m not sure i should leave you alone.  ” “  i won’t hate you. i know you think that’s what you deserve but it’s not.  ” “  i want to love the parts of you that you hate.  ” “  i’m scared of what you’re becoming.  ” “  i’m sorry, i’m not what you think i am.  ” “  you’ll always have a home with me.  ” “  what happened to you?  ” “  i thought i’d never see you again.  ” “  you’re such a fucking coward.  ” “  i envy anyone who has the privilege of being loved by you.  ” “  you scared me.  ” “  please, don’t ever give up on me.  ” “  i’m not giving up on you. not ever.  ” “  i know you love me. but it’s not the way i want to be loved.  ”

[yoakkemae-moved]

Alex is never going to do therapy, and it’s mainly because of that one time in-between missions where he was kidnapped and interrogated through “therapy sessions” by his “doctor”. Also, psychology at Malagosto? Yeah, no, Alex is never trusting a therapist ever again. 

[pouahhh]

I had to live through the entire twentieth century waiting for a version of you that would coincide with me.