My mom sees how her friends and their kids interact and wishes she had that with me
She always wants me to tell her every single little detail of my life
And there was a point where I did, I was probably like 12 and didn’t know better but anytime I told her anything she would always either twist my words, or make fun of my friends (she does this non fucking stop, even to this day and I’ve asked her not to and she like....... just....... doesn’t get it............? she’s even told me in the past that friends aren’t important and the only thing I should care about is family? and like she barely let me out in highschool I had to fucking lie left to right about nearly everything), mock me for my views, call me stupid for believing in x y and z, like the list can go on. Just being an only child and being trapped at home cause I had no say ever in what I could and couldn’t do, living with this constant headache since she never left the house cause she literally hates every person alive other than like, my dad and me. Like a person will literally JUST say excuse me at the store and grab something on the shelf or will like look at her and she will be like extremely fucking offended??????????? and will bitch about it the entire car ride home, and always makes it because she’s asian????????????????? Like honestly half these mf are probably just squinting, it’s not that fucking D E E P, and people say excuse me to get by????
There’s nothing genuine with her, she’s just a miserable fuck who wants everyone around her to be miserable, and everything she does to me is like textbook definition of gaslighting.
She even tried to make me feel guilty for moving out cause of my dog, and then mentioned his age and how “he doesnt have much time left, we didn’t get him for you (10 years ago) so you could just abandon him, oh well poor Jack if only your owner cared about you”
Now that I’m older all she ever wants me to do is help her “business” but really that just means free labor for something she never even started. I can’t even stand to be around her and all she says is that “I’m mean” to her, and all she ever does is text me “why do you hate me” out of nowhere
It’s kind of frustrating cause she only shows her “true self” around me and my dad, so family friends or the few friends I have that have met her all think she’s nice cause she puts on this fake personality around them
A lot of my friends have abusive parents, and they told me they looked back and forgave them in the end, but I, personally, am not really sure if I’ll ever reach that point, I’ll tolerate it, sure, but I’m not too sure if we’ll ever really be on good terms.
She told me in the past to kill myself and just blamed her menopause? and then ugly cried
Honestly, a good chunk as to why I decided to impulse move to Texas, is cause my mom has a very strong hate towards Texas, cause some guy from there was a creep or kept trying to flirt with her or something when she was in her 20′s so I guess she just like.........hates the entire state, because why the fuck not I guess?
But man, just being away from here is so liberating. Just not having anyone breathe down my neck, screaming, or just having a bunch of negative energy. Is just so refreshing. Also having gas be 1.80 and not 3.60 is also very nice.
