#alwaysbeyourmusee

[escafeism]

Hindi ako isang halaman na ipangdi-display mo lang; na aayusin mo lang para mag mukhang maganda kapag kinuhaan mo na ng litrato. Hindi ako isang halaman na binili mo lang para makisabay sa uso; para gamitin at isingit ako sa mga larawan mo at maging bahagi ng Instgram feed mo. Hindi ko gustong maging halaman kung gagamitin mo lang ako. Hindi ko gugustuhing maging halaman kung aalagaan mo lang ako para lang hindi ka na bumili pa uli kung sakali mang malanta na ko. Hindi ko gustong maging halaman na dadaan-daan mo lang at saka mo lang papansinin kapag isasama mo na uli ako sa mga litrato mo.

Gusto kong alagaan mo ko sa dahilang gusto mo kong manatili sa’yo. Gusto kong gustuhin mong manatili ako sa’yo sa dahilang mahal mo ko. Gusto kong mahalin mo ko sa dahilang iyon talaga ang nararamdaman mo. Hindi dahil nakikisabay ka lang sa uso; hindi dahil gagawin mo lang akong display. Ayokong maging pampaganda lang ng image mo o ng Instagram feed mo. Gusto kong maging maganda resulta ng pagmamahal mo sakin. Yun lang wala nang iba.

[escafeism]

Maybe you should stop waiting

There are questions which you are dying to know the answers, yet too afraid to ask. So instead of taking risk by asking, you simply choose to wait. Wait until that day would come when answers would find its way to you. Particularly, you are waiting for that person to tell you straightly the things you’ve been so curious about. But what if you’re just waiting for nothing? What if that person doesn’t have any plans of making things clear for you? What if that person doesn’t have any idea at all that you’re waiting for some answers from him/her? 

Think of those what ifs and as yourself this: Is it worth to wait after all? 

Sometimes, you have to stop waiting especially for something that only you are aware of. If you want to know such answers, you should have asked that person. It may not be that easy, but perhaps it is much easier than waiting. It’s crazy when you wait for a person who doesn’t even know that you are in need of answers. In that way, you are completely wasting your time.

People aren’t forecasters neither mind readers. Don’t expect that the person you’re waiting is aware of it as much as you do. There’s no way for you to get some answers other than simply asking about it. So think as early as now if waiting is still worth it because maybe you should stop waiting at all.

[escafeism]

You let me drown in a sea full of hopes. I thought you would save me from this horrible experience, but you never followed me down this sea. You made me believe that I can do it. You made me believe that you would follow after me. But you didn't.Why?Why did you let me do this? You know I'm afraid. You know I can't make it. And you lied to me when you said you would be there to save me. I'd like to believe that you betrayed me because I put my trust in you, and you lied to me. I guess all you ever wanted is for me to disappear. . Maybe, you really wanted to get rid of me. That's why you let me drown in this sea.

[escafeism]

Pure love I can't find you Have I or have I not? How would I know? Is there any clue for that? Pure love Are you real? Or you're only an imagination? Do you exists? Or just an illusion? Pure love If I find you I won't let go If I have you already Please don't let me abandoned you

Pure love [

[escafeism]

To the girl who always get her heart broken.

Maybe you’ve been asking yourself what’s wrong with you. Maybe you’ve been wondering why guys keep on hurting you. Maybe you’ve been tired hearing lies and broken promises. Maybe you should stop thinking about these things and take my advice. Dear, I advice you to rest. You and your heart have been through a lot already. So consider taking some rest for now. Stop stressing yourself over such painful thoughts. Instead, do things that would make you forget. Find what could give you a genuine happiness and believe me, it’s not all the time that you get that kind of happiness from loving someone. In fact, you could be genuinely happy with your family and friends. Don’t hold on. Please, let go and move on. You deserve someone better. Stop clinging to that stupid dude. You don’t deserve him and he doesn’t deserve your love. It’s time to say good bye and free yourself from further pain. If you’ve been asking what’s wrong with you, let me tell you this: There’s nothing wrong with you. He’s just so blind and stupid to appreciate you. And if there would be one thing wrong with you, that is when force yourself to him after all that has happened. Please don’t do that. Don’t be so cruel to yourself and to your heart. One day, all the pain will heal. One day, you’ll forget all your memories together. One day, you’ll find the one who’s right for you. One day … That one day would come to you my dear. Just be patient and don’t rush things.

[escafeism]

People may think that I'm hard to be with. Maybe because I don't socialize that much and when I do, it's always with a few people. I'm not snob. I'm not anti-people. I'm not just comfortable being in a large group. I don't know how to converse or how to even get along. I always think that I'm boring and people may think I'm weird and corny. I don't know. I really find it hard. That's why you might see me alone all the time. I usually preferred being away from everybody because in that case, I don't have to try hard and won't be pressured to talk with the people surrounding me. Being alone frees me from these anxieties. I just hope that people will get to understand that everyone is not good at conversing with other people. There will always be fear of judgement and rejection.

[imhillaryanne]

Hi nasa SG ka pala. :) try mo pumunta sa Orchard :)) shopping district nila, hehe wala Lang Nakakatuwa kasi dun

Hi. Yup, hanggang August 8 ako dito. Hahahaha. :) and i’ve been in Orchard, maganda nga kaso nakakapagod maglakad ng maglakad. Hahaha. Actually nalibot ko na ata ung buong SG nung last time ko na nagpunta. Hahaha. Sobrang funny nawala pa ko. Pero ok na ko ngayon. Hahaha. Big girl na ko. Chos hahahhaa.

[escafeism]

You know exactly what your flaws are. Through the years, you get to discover more of your imperfections. At times, you are bothered by it but you don’t really mind not until people notice it. As soon as you hear it from other people, that’s the time your self esteem starts to decline while your insecurity builds up. Each day, you feel annoyed with your flaws. Voices of different people seem to linger on your ears and you keep on hearing criticisms inside your head. Now, it bothers you. 

To regain your confidence, you find ways to conceal your imperfections. Sometimes you are lucky to find things which could help you to somehow hide your flaws. However, not all flaws can be concealed. No matter what you do, flaws will always be there. The only thing that could help you bring back your self esteem is by accepting what you got. 

Love yourself including your imperfections. Accept the fact that you simply cannot have it all and that you are blessed in some other ways. There’s no need for you to hide your imperfections because everyone of us have our own flaws. It is by loving and accepting your whole self that you get to build a strong character within you and when your character is strong no one can easily put you down.