"It all started because of my little crush"
By Alyssa Balingit
This is a carefully kept secret, but every night before I go to bed, I make-up scenarios in my mind.
To begin, apart from academic or meaning materials, I recall the first book I’ve ever read. It was the hit, “the Diary of a Wimpy Kid,” I recollect being so engrossed in it, finishing in one setting.
When I read, I make extensive use of my imagination. I always envision what I read. It makes the whole thing even more enjoyable. But, as I reflect on my childhood, I’ve come to realize I’ve always been imaginative. Fascinated by those around me, my surroundings, and why I think and act the way I do.
I used to compose lyrics, narratives or storylines on an Orion Intermediate Pad. It’s incredible how I remember this detail, atleast to me. It consisted of my crush, kind and so charming, He was my seatmate, using different names to whatever I was writing. He’d read it at times, unaware it was about him. I don’t think he knew I had a crush on him at the time, and I hope he never finds out. Young me was so corny.
Years passed, and fan fiction was my first exposure to writing online; actually taking the time to time and compose. I believe it took place in 2014? I used to read Wattpad, listen to kpop and one direction was it not a sure bet?
It was posted on my twitter stan account. I can't seem to recall particular elements and themes. The sure thing there was that it was a lot of grammatical mistakes and a lot of cringing.
Man, it was truly an era.
To be honest, I don’t write now as a hobby. What I do is think of scenarios, appropriate lines for it, visual settings and now I picture my characters. I’d jot them down on random papers.
My subsequent writing experiences were prompted by requirements or performance tasks in junior high school. Fast forward to grade 11, upon transferring to Holy Angel, when there was a groupwork involving creation of scripts, I’d generally volunteer because it was something I felt more comfortable doing than speaking or editing. I was in conflict. I believe I felt mediocre since I could not fully show my creativity because of the restrictions and significance of sticking within the designated topic.
“Preserve your memories, keep them well.”
“What you forget, you can never retell.”
Journaling has been the most meaningful thing I;ve begun this year. It caused me to reflect on my day, what I’ve learned, who I’ve spoken with, and what I’ve done. It prompted self-realization and reflections I had not thought about before.
To conclude, it also had a fundamental impact on my writing. It excited me to think I’d be capable of looking back upon my sentiment and thoughts. I look forward to use how my life changes month by month, year by year as I grow older.
Things I have no control over will continue to happen. The key would be affirmation, and the reality that it’s all about perspective when it comes to life.
I constantly tell myself that regardless of what happens and no matter what othe people think and say,
I am the protagonist of my own story.