#amanda acts

[iamherculesmulligan]

AW YEAH MOTHER FRICKERS I got called back for vocals~~~ (And I didn't even get close to having a panic attack???)

[iamherculesmulligan]

And so ends the run of You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown. We put it on with 96 cast members (almost exclusively kids) in 11 days and did 6 performances. I'm ready for sleep.

[iamherculesmulligan]

Opening night of Brigadoon was so wonderful hebdjdodbwjdodkdns. Of course, there were a few snags and mess-ups (as is expected)--but the audience was great, and we had a fantastic time. Now we have about 3 hours until call for another show =]

[iamherculesmulligan]

OH MAN I just got back from my audition for Pride and Prejudice a little bit ago, and it actually went really well hehevdkewpwhebejd I initially thought I would just be considered for Lady Catherine, but the director had me read for Lizzie in the coupled readings??? I am super excited sjsjsbdjdkdwbjs

[iamherculesmulligan]

My parents are watching the recording of Patience, and it is super weird hearing myself sing.

[iamherculesmulligan]

I just realized...

I have a copy of my university's production of Gilbert & Sullivan's Patience.

.......and it's public domain.

[iamherculesmulligan]

Cast list is up, and I am not cast.

Not really surprised, and actually kinda relieved.

Not gonna lie, I'm still disappointed

But, I mean, it's really a good thing.

Meep.

[iamherculesmulligan]

The 5 Stages of Post-Audition Grief:

Denial - You refuse to believe that you did as badly as you think you did. You cling to whatever strand of hope you can find, and will hear nothing of negativity regarding possible outcomes.

Anger - You lash out and blame your circumstances (or fellow actors) for not being able to perform at the best of your abilities. You realize that these things (or people) aren't truly responsible for you situation, but this irrational blame-laying brings a strange sense of comfort.

Bargaining - "If only I had read that character like THIS," "If only I asked the director for extra background on So-And-So," "If only I had actually SLEPT the night before," and other similar phrases fill your mind as you pray for some sort of miracle in which you actually get a role.

Depression - The hope you clung to early on seems to have vanished, and you are certain that there is absolutely no way you deserve ANY role in the show. This is sometimes referred to as the "dress rehearsal for the aftermath."

Acceptance - You step back and realize, "It is now out of my hands, and there is nothing I can do to change things." You finally come to terms with whatever the final outcome may be, and you begin to find peace and comfort (even in the state of Not-Yet-Posted Cast List Uncertainty).