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[myheartwillstarttoshine]

6 selfies whatsamajig, tagged by fandoms-and-fitness I tag loveonthewater, ampond52, holy-crap-its-christmas and anyone who follows me who feels up to it (you better tag me so I can see your pretty faces

[myheartwillstarttoshine]

It would be absolutely wonderful you being "on the pull" were it not for the fact that I've been arguing with myself about trying to reinstate something with you. Thanks mate. Cherry on the top of a mostly shit day. With the exception, I would like to point out, of this evening! The end of the Christmas lights switch on that I managed to catch with loveonthewater, fandoms-and-fitness and ampond52 was great! Particularly ampond52's company on the walk home, the crazy fairground ride and buying me a mcflurry!💕 even if her phone did brain me on said ride!😜

[myheartwillstarttoshine]

Tagged

I was tagged by Yomna

Rule 1: post the rules  Rule 2: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones  Rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to the post  Rule 4: actually tell them you tagged them

1. What song will you never get bored of?

Marianas Trench- Shake Tramp. No matter what mood I'm in, it makes me smile and want to dance. Its not my favourite, but I love it all the same.

2. What is your most bizarre pet peeve?

People elongating the 'S' sounds in words. My mother does it with "appreciate" and it is the most condescending thing in the world and makes me want to punch a wall. Also, hearing the food in someone's mouth hitting the sides of it. Thats fairly obvious but it makes me want to gag :(

3. What is your greatest fear?

I used to think it was being forgotten, but now I think its more a fear of not being content with what I achieve. Its something that happens often, and I really fear it happening with my life as a whole.

4. Is there a fictional character you really empathize with/relate to? Who? Why?

Sherlock. It sounds conceited, but its evident that the ability of his mind is a curse. "Is it nice not being me? It must be so relaxing" and although I don't necessarily have the level of intellect (certainly not) I do really struggle with my head. I have 50 million thoughts flooding it and whizzing by constantly that its near impossible to focus and work with one, so in that respect I empathise a great deal. 

The whole "freak" thing is also nothing new. I mean, sure, I get the piss taken out of me for a multitude of starkly different reasons, but the insult and the abuse are there all the same. 

Also, in the new series, Sherlock not ever having expected to be anyone's best friend. I have had people say that I class as such, but I truly don't expect or understand it. I'm much too annoying for anyone to put up with me for long. 

That was a really long answer. Oops. You can kind of see why I get so upset about his character now, right? 

5. If you could only watch one genre of film, what genre would you pick?

You cant make me call this! I need a different genre of film for my every mood! My taste in films seriously varies that much, I like a lot of almost everything. I refuse to make a choice. 

6. Who knows you best?

Idk, for everything that the people I'm close to know about me, theres about 3+ things they don't. I'm going to have to really sadly say myself. Oops. 

7. What “most likely to” superlative would you be most honored to receive?

"Most likely to work with their idols" or "Most likely to make a career in Film & TV"

8. What is the most annoying question you’ve ever been asked?

"What have I ever done to deserve the way you're speaking to me?"- If I'm speaking to you in an unpleasant way, be sure to know that this is a very rare occurence and you have REALLY done something to make me do so. If this happens, its something pretty damn big and you should be able to work it out. 

9. What city do you really want to visit, and why?

I don't know! I just really want to travel; as far, often and as much as possible! 

10. What turn you off the most?

Long dirty fingernails are the most disgusting thing ever. Also, showing a distinct lack of personal will.

11. If you won the lottery, what would you spend the money on?

I would spend it on a) a nice house to make my own b) using it in any way possible to get to a sufficient level in my desired profession c) putting the rest away until I need it for anything else. 

My questions for you:

1. If you could have a day with a specific character, who would you choose, what would you do, and what one thing would you want to say to them? why?

2. What song(s) do you want played at your funeral?

3. What would your non physical "pressure point" be?

4. What food could you eat almost always? 

5. What are your worst habits? 

6. What are your best features? (physical or otherwise) 

7. Name three things you have done in the past week that you're most proud of

8. Most interesting person you know or know of?

9. How long has it taken you so far to get through these questions?

10. What is your favourite article of clothing that you own, why?

11. What do you aspire to do with your life? 

I cant think of enough people to tag, so anyone who follows me and sees this, you are tagged too, i love you, please feel free to answer these. <3

[myheartwillstarttoshine]

I got tagged by Anna

Rule 1: post the rules  Rule 2: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones  Rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to the post  Rule 4: actually tell them you tagged them

1. If you could choose any animal as your daemon (the animal form of your consciousness that walks beside you and represents your personality; e.g. someone submissive and who likes to please might have a dog as their daemon’s final form), what would it be and why?

I truly have no idea! Possibly a horse. They're intelligent enough to be clued up on what's going on and get upset about it, they can be loyal and caring when they form an attachment and they can lash out and defend themselves. Idk, I guess it would be pretty weird and inconvenient to have a horse walking beside me all the time though. 

2. If you could say just one thing to just one fictional character, who would it be and what would you say?

Jesus Christ! There are many characters I'd like to meet, and keeping in with my wish to fix everyone, I would love to try to help them. But then again, some of the things I love about said characters is how broken they are and how strong at the same time. I would want to give them a form of comfort though. I think in the end it would be Sherlock Holmes. I'd like to let him know that no matter how difficult and wonderous a person he may be, there will always be someone out there who will love and/or appreciate him.

3. Favourite song and why?

Do you have any idea how long it is taking me to think of this? I feel like I'm neglecting all my other favourite songs to pick just one. 

Either Dayshell- Edge of the World or Neck Deep- Kick It

Dayshell are my favourite band, possibly and that song is beautiful in so many ways. I cant even begin to describe how wonderful it is to me. You know when you feel kind of shitty and you put a particular song on and you relax and get shivers of tension being released and you just sink into the music. That's this song. 

Kick it has my favourite lyric in, perhaps ever. "After all we're all just learning curves, and trampled nerves, with a purpose to serve. But you'll never get what I meant when I said 'You were mine to adore, I was yours to regret'"

4. Song that makes you cry everytime without fail and why?

Copeland- Chin Up or Testing the Strong Ones

They're both songs that have been my comfort blanket and go to song whenever things get too much. They're songs that deeply affect me and make me sob my heart out and sometimes thats exactly what I need to get through something. 

5. If you could live in any country, where would it be?

I don't really want to live in a particular place. I want to have somewhere to call home to go back to, and travel for 80% of the rest of my time. 

6. What’s the best thing anyone’s ever said to you?

So many people have said so many wonderful things to me. The things that I consider the best things are not things I want to refresh in my memory. They're things related to a specific person that I've been doing everything in my power to forget. Also, they're more insults than positives.

7. What do you wish you were doing right now?

Sleeping. 

8. What’s the body part (that isn’t genitals come on use some imagination get weird I don’t care) (if it helps mine is hands) that you have a weird thing for?

Jawlines and hair.

9. Give me a lyric that you think represents you and explain why.

A continent of doubt weighs heavy on mind, How long can my brittle bones bend, Before they yield and snap? I don't wanna know, 'cause I'm so scared, It's not gonna get easier than this, Because it's too much to bare my darlin', the weight of the world, And I would carry it for you, But please don't ask me to because the Weight of the world is a burden I can't bare. Is a burden I can't bare.

10. If you could only have sex with one gender for the rest of your life, which one would it be?

Don't make me choose! God damnit. I'm not sure I can. Probably male because I couldnt stand not being able to take my chance with Benedict Cumberbatch should it ever arise. 

11. If the Sorting Hat asked you which House you wanted to be in, which one would you choose?

I've finally almost finished! Slytherin!

My questions for you: 

1. Name a song which makes you swell with happiness. (one that just makes you smile no matter what) why?

2. If you could do anything, what would it be? (Profession, singular action, anything)

3. Which of your material possessions means the most to you? why?

4. What is your idea of a perfect day/night? Be as detailed as possible

5. What do you do to cheer yourself up?

6. What one film would you want to be a part of? why? what sort of character? 

7. If you could spend your life with one character, who would you choose? 

8. Name 5 things about yourself that you consider qualities. 

9. Name one opportunity you would like to have access to

10. Who are you closest to, why?

11. What makes you dislike/hate a person?

[atlasandheracles]

I WAS TAGGED IN A THING

I was tagged by Ellie! :)

Rule 1: post the rules Rule 2: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones Rule 3: tag 11 people and link them to the post Rule 4: actually tell them you tagged them

1. If you were a quote, which would it be and why?

“There is no magic cure, no making it all go away forever. There are only small steps upward; an easier day, an unexpected laugh, a mirror that doesn't matter anymore.” – Laurie Halse Anderson, ‘Wintergirls’

This is here because I have spent the last two years pulling my head out of my ass and actively trying to become a person who lives and loves and is happy rather than (barely) functions. It’s made me realise that I can endure and endure and endure and endure and just not fucking stop, and I am still working out how to twist that quality into something that helps rather than hurts. “I am thawing”, to give you more from Wintergirls. (It’s a great book.) (Read it.)

2. If you could change one single life on earth for better, what kind of person would you pick and why?

Selfishly? I’m going to pick her (she knows who she is). I wish she felt better.

Unselfishly? I think I’d pick one of the most isolated, least privileged people I could find, and surround them with people who were on their side/members of their identity group/actively trying to initiate change so they had a support network.

But the more I think about this the more unfair I think it is to select just one person, so I don’t really know. I’m not stupid; I wouldn’t insist on improving nobody’s life, but to alleviate my own guilt it would probably have to be picked at random.

3. Do you have any secret talents? What are they?

ERM

I have talents (?) (what) I’m not sure how secret they are. I play piano pretty well; I play the flute; I write prose (I like to think in quite an accomplished way)…

I’m spectacularly weird, if that counts as part of a skillset.

4. Have you ever felt like someone/ something saved your life? Tell me about it :)

Yes. Me. I have. I am the one who talked myself down, every single time.

But also, in no particular (read: some vague kind of) order: Paramore, every song every time; Moving Mountains; Ben Howard; Bones by Josh Record; How We Do by Rita Ora; Amsterdam by Gregory Alan Isakov; EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN ONE of Richard Siken’s poems; my tumblr survival tag; “I forgive you”; Amy Lee’s voice on Good Enough; daydreaming; cups of tea; the way Hayley’s voice breaks on every song because she means it so much; I Am Not A Robot by Marina and the Diamonds

5. Favourite song?

Gosh er there is no all time favourite I’m sorry er

Right now, The Leopard and The Lung by The Joy Formidable (please buy Wolf’s Law it’s so good it’s so so so good I am screaming about it all day every day)

Also Radiate by Enter Shikari (so to keep us from falling apart) (we'll write songs in the dark)

6. Do you believe in fate or are you the maker of your own life?

When I’m relapsing or getting stuck in old old habits or panicking then I often find myself desperately trying to blame God but I don’t think that counts as faith, as much as I love it and am fascinated by it in other people. No, I’m in control of my life.

7. Who inspires you?

Hayley Williams. Misha Collins. Emma Thompson. Beyonce. Not my dad. Maybe a little my mum. A friend of mine called Emma, she's nice to everyone all of the time and y'know, ~*~aspirations~*~

8. What is the best part of your personality?

Endurance. Attempting kindness at all costs.

9. Best day you ever had? :)

Shhhhh not telling shhhhhh shhhhhhh

There was one fantastic night when I spent the whole time laughing with the person I’m in love with.

There was another night when she told me she wanted me, although in hindsight both of these are quite painful actually they hurt to think about right now let’s not MOVING ON

There was a great day when I met all my friends and got to forget about everything and stop worrying. There. That memory isn't getting painful anytime soon.

10. What’s the last book you read? Did you like it?

Crush by Richard Siken. Yes yes yes yes definitely yes god yes

11. Did you make any New Year’s resolutions? What are they and did you manage to break them already? :D

Yes I did, they were to try to move on from someone or sort the situation out. I wouldn’t say ‘broken’, I’d go more with ‘slowly stopped trying and became demotivated because it wasn’t working at all be honest with yourself Anna’.

  My 11 questions to you!:

If you could choose any animal as your daemon (the animal form of your consciousness that walks beside you and represents your personality; e.g. someone submissive and who likes to please might have a dog as their daemon's final form), what would it be and why?

If you could say just one thing to just one fictional character, who would it be and what would you say?

Favourite song and why?

Song that makes you cry everytime without fail and why?

If you could live in any country, where would it be?

What's the best thing anyone's ever said to you?

What do you wish you were doing right now?

What's the body part (that isn't genitals come on use some imagination get weird I don't care) (if it helps mine is hands) that you have a weird thing for?

Give me a lyric that you think represents you and explain why.

If you could only have sex with one gender for the rest of your life, which one would it be?

If the Sorting Hat asked you which House you wanted to be in, which one would you choose?