I will no longer sanitize my queerness tor be more marketable or look good on a resume or look good.
Im queer as in freak. Im queer as in neglected touch starved shutin weirdo. Im queer in monstrous and inhuman but not unloveable. Im queer as in militantly optimistic even in the face of an uncertain doom. Im queer as in dating my animalshifter syscon headmates. Im queer as on kinky and paraphilic and abnormally enthusiastic about it. Im queer as in willing to humiliate/embarrass/inconvenience/bleed to stand in solidarity with others. Im queer as in feeling constantly marginalized and othered by white cishet spaces.
Im queer as in choosing to breath another day is an act of radical self kindness even though it's really hard and I still doomspiral. Im queer as in sticking to my ethical code even if it's different from society's norms of abuse and moral purity and virtue signaling even if it's inconvenient for me personally.
Im queer as in refusing to let people drive me into self hatred and conformity. Im queer as in all cops are bastards and gay cops are bastard pick mes who defend patriarchy and homophobia
Im queer as in fuck you. Im queer as in not your martyr for neoliberalism.
I'm queer as in unmarketable and unemployable.