So the guy I use to like, and just might still, got dumped by his girlfriend for the third time today. He was distressed and was crying because the reason she broke up with him had no dealing with him whatsoever. And to hear from friends that his now ex girlfriend would make up so many things just to move on from guys because she had a hard time staying in a relationship for so long; it just kills me to know he's heartbroken over her. She ticks me off to the maximum amount and she hasn't even done anything to me. But the fact that she's hurt someone who I care about dearly, it just bothers me. I love him, in a best friend kind of way and possibly even more (I'm not even sure of my emotions anymore but I knew I wanted to cry when he was nearly in tears) and all I want to see is him happy. That's what I said when he told me he didn't see me as anymore than a really good friend. I just want him happy. God I hate how I'm feeling all these conflicted thoughts and I'm thinking about him so much and how sorry I feel that he has to feel this heartache over someone he really cared about. Well she wasn't worth it, to be honest. He could have chose another girl who was right for him. Or maybe he could have just waited for the right one to come along... (sadly, I thought I was the right one-- even now I feel so. Or maybe I just feel he's right for me. >.<) Ugh I'm just gonna constantly tell myself to get over him. He'll only see me as nothing more than a good friend. Just stop it before you get hurt again, I tell myself. Meh let me just go before I embarrass myself. ._.
