May 20, 2021
Saw the photo and couldn't resist. It turned out more dignified and thoughtful than I expected. I love Jaskier and Joey Batey! 😇
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Saw the photo and couldn't resist. It turned out more dignified and thoughtful than I expected. I love Jaskier and Joey Batey! 😇
I dont know how to make good friends anymore. All my friendships are shallow af, I haven't had a best friend since I left community College. Idk what to do, I want a family of friends so bad but that's hard to do when your 28.
I have let myself get soooooo social media illiterate I'm honestly crying laughing about it. I'm challenging myself to engage in fandom more again with some fanart and wanted to try posting to Instagram (Notably to an account my family can't see lol) and I had the HARDEST time figuring out how to do so. I had to google how to hashtag properly. Jesus Christ, I'm getting old. At least I understand how tumblr works, that hasn't let me down yet. It helps that I actually use this site, while all my other socials are practically ghost accounts from like 10 years ago.
I turn 32 today. I'm feeling really old and missing the people i used to have in my life.
This year was a big one for me. I turned 30. I graduated with my Masters degree, I self-published my first book, I'm about to interview for my first "real" job after college. I started DM-ing for my first D&D campaign which has been going surprisingly well. I've lived a year without my father, almost two now. But everything still feels insubstantial, like nothing can touch me right now. I want to feel joy, I fear the anxiety that has been my constant companion, and I want to feel more than just the ghost of pride for my accomplishments. I hope in a years time I can say that 2024 was a big one, in a good way, and feel in with joyful intensity, not spend the night sick and feeling sorry for myself. Happy new year friends, good luck out there next year :)
It really is a gut punch to finally try to talk to someone about your problems and then get completely shut down. I realize people are busy but jesus tell me you're busy when you answer the phone and don't wait until I've started talking about my feelings before cutting me off.
I'm so tired of everything. I didn't sign up for this. I dont want to do this anymore.
Sometimes people's Fandom takes piss me off so bad I get the urge to write a ten page sourced paper why they're fucking wrong
....and then I realize I need to sleep and this much aggression about fictional characters is not a valuable use of my time as a full time graduate student. Though I will have you know I wrote an entire treatment plan paper on treating Harry Potter for PTSD so don't test me. (Partly inspired by my blood boiling whenever someone calls Harry a traumatized 15 year old "whiny" or "moody" jfc).
Ever just need someone to say the right thing? Like you don't know what the right thing is, and you don't know who is the right person to say the right thing, and really all you get when you go looking for it is the WRONG thing but you just....idk
Help me? Someone? Please say the right thing, because I'm drowning