Regardless, It really does "feel like i've been awaken from the dead and everyone's been waiting on me (Paramore, Now)." It's now or never. I've been so stuck in a dream world of my own that I've neglected reality. It's time that I wake up and start doing some of the things I've been dreaming about. It's about time that I stop being hooked up to the leash of Anklebitters and stop worrying so much about what others think (paramore). Everything I should do whether It be the way I dress, the way I wear my hair, or how I choose to live, It should be strictly out of self expression. And I thought I was doing a good job of that but out of self- reevaluation I decided against it. Self Expression is such a powerful tool. I don't know why people are so quick to suppress it. It's the only shot we as individuals have at expressing who we are. Self expression falls into many categories, fashion, music, hair, art the list goes on. When we stop expressing ourselves and stop being who are. We lose ourselves and that's my biggest fear. I never want to be a clone of anyone else and I never want to look at anyone else and want to be them or like anything other than myself. I see too many people trying to be something that someone else is already being. And I see too many people bashing people for being themselves and being different. It's sad. If there is anything I would like to teach my kids or who ever might look up to me in the future is to take advantage using self expression (music, fashion, art) to show others who you are because who you are is beautiful. The world needs more beauty.