#annoyedatmyself

[kdscato-blog]

#draw365 #day81 #late #day82 #annoyedatmyself Ok. I missed yesterday, and caught up with it this morning but my phone didn't charge overnight so I didn't take a pic because it was across the room plugged in and then I started on more details with the original shadow line about 10 minutes ago without taking the picture I forgot about earlier and that's why there are two different days tagged in one post and I'm sorry. And breathe...

[llaurelled]

I've gotten really good at assuming I did something wrong/someone hates me when they stop texting me back as often/the same as before. Also at overthinking, overreacting and assuming the worst.

[xevaaa]

lol oh god what have I done

i shoulnd't have said that ... 

goddamn it took me three days to pick up the courage to tell you that im ready  to accept your feeilngs... but i picked the wrong time and day and the wrong way of expressing it. I'm so bad at this llol... I thinki startled you and now YOUr the one whos overwhlemed . i hate this  o fmyself. this is the first time i made such couragement to do such a thing and now i like....... fucked up hard. 

I didn't actaully mean it to pretend it never happened cause it did, and I'm sure of my feeelings since I gave it so much thought. when you asked me if im sure i answered u telling u not to tell me before i question myself but that wasn't wat i was trying to say... what i meant to say was since i already told you...yes that means im sure . i should have just said yes. fk 

and I do want to talk to u :( it hink thats the reason why i found out about my feelings cause I realized I miss talking to you becuase its become like a part of my daily life , nwo it feels wierd not talking to you...  im just bad at this period. you totally vanisehd on me and this totally like reminded me of my dream I had. I was scared to msg you since im the last person u prob wana talk to cause I kinda just like startled you... omg. I suck at this lol. Im sorry x.x esp since you're going thru a rough time. I'm going to give you your personal space and not bother you :D cuacse thast theleast I can do. but your not allowed to ignore me for too long ok :((((((((((  

anyhow i have a test tmr toodle do peeps. ima just go to bed and not overthink. fml. im such ashitty person when it comes to relationships idk wat and how to take care of things T.T

ps: i'll take full responsibility of this , as long as u dont like hate me or like am afraid to talk to me again :c aiii jajinnnnahhhh.  (@ m yself ofc)

[inhertwentieees]

Food and food and food....

Today i broke my record.... I literally ate 7 courses. Usually i would limit myself and eat the next day but my tummy was like "FOOD FOOD! MORE FOOD!!!!" and i'm like "okay... i'll feed you....." HENCE -> OMG! WTF. I am becoming so fat so soon. 

WEIGHTING SCALE PLEASE DO ME A FAVOUR AND STAY AWAY FROM ME ): 

[nighttrise]

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And it's been almost 3 months, and i'm still sitting here just feeling numb.