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[volatilehearted]

Stiles has there ever been anyone you mistrusted immensely, and were proven wrong about their intentions? What happened that changed your mind?

"Nope. Everyone I've mistrusted immensely has been immensely untrustworthy and I have never been wrong about it, ever. I was a little suspicious of Kira at first, but it was just a little. A healthy amount of suspicious."

[anomalagous]

Okay it’s been FOREVER since I last was on tumblr, but it’s been my coping mechanism this past few weeks. So was Teen Wolf, and most obviously so were my stupid boys. And now that I’m drowning again in your gorgeous fics (just.. *gah*) and that I’m at season 5 where all the angst that I don’t like happens, I was wondering if you had recs for fix it fics, like I want the Donovan subject adressed, discussed, dissected and everything. Not just brushed off like in canon. I’ll be FOREVER GRATEFUL

Because it was a huge thing and it needed to be talked through, I didn’t like the skittles part of handling it and neither did I the stalia part (my bby Malia deserved better), so if you have anything regarding those two ships (or just skittles I absolutely don’t mind), please help a girl out. Thank you again and sorry for this long ass ask. Long live your fics !!!! [2/2]Ahhh, I’m so sorry, I am terrible at this! I don’t have any fixit fics specifically for those issues, but if you’re willing to read roleplay logs,  I played out the Donovan situation with my Scott-mun much differently than canon did and I dare say much better. That ‘verse can be found here: https://volatilehearted.tumblr.com/tagged/v:%20origin%20of%20love/chrono

although you’ll need to dig a wee bit to find the interaction in question ‘cause we started the ‘verse before S5 even aired.

Otherwise, all of my TW fics are Skittles bc I’m shameless, so if you wanna go dig through my AO3 and haven’t already, please feel free! Also @lozenger8 writes quite a bit of Skittles fic and drabbles. I hope it helps at least!

[volatilehearted]

thought you didn't write with multimuse blogs?

i didn't use to, but i do now. that's the short answer. but, since i understand where the confusion came from, i'll also add a bit more explanation. bear with me, it'll all come back around.

so, i'm autistic. mostly this doesn't impact my online interactions very much, especially since i find it much easier to express myself in written words than verbally. it does, however, mean that there are certain areas of my life where i really, really prefer strict order in things. if i want to overcome that innate urge, it's possible, but i often have to put time and effort into overcoming the discomfort that comes with not structuring things the way i like them structured.

one of the things that i'm most hidebound about wanting structured is muse blogs. i've been rping most of my life, and i'm afraid i've left my spring chicken days behind me. the games and formats i used before tumblr were such that you had one or two characters in a persistent world. you played your one or two characters and built relationships with all the other players on the game and the world felt alive, changed with the impact of the characters living in it. tumblr rp doesn't work that way, really, but that was what i was comfortable with, so when i first really started rping here, i did what i felt i needed to do to stay close to the format as i was used to until i could work through the discomfort. it's also why i have a separate blog for each of my characters and am really, really miserably bad at keeping more than one muse active at a time. there was a time where i wasn't even multi-verse. i was just single verse single muse and that was that. i preferred my rp partners to have one blog with one muse because i felt that made it easier for me to get to know that muse and be comfortable with them.

when teen wolf was airing that worked out okay because there were plenty of people playing characters from it and most of them focused on single-muse blogs. there were plenty of most characters to go around and i could knit together little 'verses with multiple canons in them and get my rp fill. but now the show's been off-air for a while, and the fandom is shrinking. that happens, that's natural, but teen wolf remains my hyperfixation (i don't really have any control over what IS my hyperfixation) so i'm still looking to rp as stiles. i'm also a ravenous rp-er since it is my main hobby and has been since i was like 11, so i ended up focusing the time and energy on working through my discomfort with multi-muse blogs because, to be absolutely frank, remaining that selective was going to net me zero rp partners. it kind of already has, it's very rare anyone other than @goingtosave is willing to play with me even though i would like to think these days i'm very open to most rp and @goingtosave and i would also love to come as a package deal to any muses looking for a scott-and-stiles duo. (please love us we are friendly we promise)

i actually changed this rule about multi-muses a while ago, but i've been very lazy and haven't revamped my blog so the old rules are still linked in the tag, too. clearly this means i should prioritize making things less confusing.

hope that explained things better, sorry for getting longwinded. it's in my nature.

[anomalagous]

Going through your sciles tag and your art is just💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Aw, thanks, friend! I’m still actively working on sciles fanworks so if you ever have any ideas shoot ‘em my way and i’ll see if they spark something for me!

[volatilehearted]

HEY HEY do you remember a time when duran was under the url lcbrat and a lot of people thought it was code for lc brat hahahahaha

okay but like hOW COULD I FORGET

[volatilehearted]

Stiles, if with "demon" you are referring to Nogitsune, I have to tell you that he is not a demon, he is a Kitsune of Darkness. Just because an entity is evil does not mean it is a demon. True demons inhabit Hell and take care of the souls of the beings that were evil.

“Did you think I didn’t do any research after all of that shit I went through? Did you think I didn’t do everything I could to make sure it didn’t happen to me again? The fact that the particular nogitsune that possessed me was Void didn’t have anything to do with it being evil. Nogitsune is just one of the words for a kitsune that is evil, no matter what element it is. You know what else is a word for an evil kistune? Yokai. You know what yokai are?

“They’re fucking demons, so you and your Judeochristian bullshit can eat my entire ass.”

[volatilehearted]

Stiles, what did you feel when Nogitsune possessed your body? He just wanted to feed and also do you a favor, you were his vessel, he wanted to make the people who hurt you suffer, he cared about you, just as any creature cares about your host, he never lied to you, because deep down you really wanted them to feel everything that you felt but never had the courage to tell them. It's okay to feel angry, even from the people you love. Since they hurt you.

“No. No, he did not care about me. He used me. He used me to do terrible things and then he got off more by how much it upset me. It was all a game to him and all any of us were to him were pieces in it. He could have gotten another host any time. I wasn’t anything special.

“It hurt. It hurt and I hated it and I hated myself ‘cause I couldn’t tell if it was all him or part me that thought having that kind of power was kind of fun. I dunno if you’ve ever met me, but I’m not subtle. If I’m in pain, people usually know. I don’t have to tell them through fucking Saw traps. I didn’t want to shoot Coach with an arrow or blow up my Dad or twist a sword in Scott’s stomach, I didn’t want Allison to die, what the fuck is wrong with you? I’m not going to let you talk me into some kind of post-possession stockholm syndrome where I’m deluded into thinking I was better off with a creature that was actively killing me than with Scott Fucking McCall.”

[anomalagous]

Hey you should totally write that skittles venom au :3

omg.