#anonymous conversations

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need bnd so bad it the only thing keeping me alive:>

me too honestly 🥺

we are so close to the end !!!

[devastationwagon]

Things I Want To Say But Can't: I want to tell my stepdad he's a horrible person, an actual walking trashbag of a human being and his death can't come quickly enough for me.

You are talking to someone who never got the chance to do that, but you also sent this to someone who, later in life, told his mother-in-law to “fuck off completely,” because of how she had been consistently treating her daughter. I blew that whole thing up. Completely. But she and my wife are talking again now, and it’s a little better. I’m still “a monster” and completely kept at a distance, but I do not regret saying it.

If I could have done the same to the stepdad that used to kick and punch happy little vulnerable six-year-old me, I would do it in a heartbeat.

Please take my advice as just the rambling experiences of a stranger. I am not a therapist by any means. I just think there is so much power in letting the truth out. I don’t know any specifics about what the repercussions would be for you or your family.

I’m sorry that this person is in your life. So much love to you!

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Eren choking Mikasa to submission😻 she loves to feel his big hands on her throat and it does things to her....

He threatens to get her pregnant if she doesn't shut up while he fucks her and that just makes her moan even louder....

anon 🤤

eren threatening to put a little jaeger heir in her 😫 “You wanna go back to your family, hm? Sure thing sweetheart, I’ll send you back nice and round so you won’t miss me too much.”

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i miss boy next door so much!! ☹️

tysm for this message honestly i feel like it is only me obsessing about boy next door but i am glad to know im not alone!! 🥺

in the mean time i invite you to see this gorgeous art by @/samsasam from boy next door chapter three on x!! please fangirl with me this is the eren of my dreams!!!! she absolutely nailed it!!!

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Ris!!!!! I've been catching up on the priest au thirst and i thought of eren from priest au and a drunk clingy mikasa stumbling into his office part of him would find it cute how she was clinging onto the point he couldn't even move giggling and asking him silly little questions like 'would you love me if i was a worm' with the cutest pout on her face her trying to kiss him and stuff but I also feel like he would get jealous cause no one except him alone gets to corrupt his sweet mikasa but he let it go for that night cause he has to take care of his baby but little does she know what he has planned for her the next day

omg drunk mikasa is so sweet. giddy after one glass too many of leftover homemade wine from a donation drive, cheeks warm and pink, a toothy grin on her face. it makes eren realise she doesn’t smile as much as she deserves, and it brings a pang of regret in his chest. if he hadn’t brought her to this town, if he hadn’t ever met her, would her life have turned out differently? would she have smiled more?

in his office, she’s on her knees because he’s asked her to be. or rather he’d only said it once, a small slip of tongue and honesty, when he’d admitted: you look nice like that, pretty on your knees. if he’d been looser lipped he would’ve also said: … with your small mouth wet and pink like a little kitten. but he hadn’t, and she hadn’t known just how depraved it really got inside his dark place, so he kept coming back, kept kneeling by his side, kept saying ‘father’ in that soft, raspy voice of hers that haunted him at night. today she is less restrained, and rests her cheek on his thigh, right above her knee, more intimate than he ever allows, more affectionate than she thinks she is probably allowed to be with her priest.

“i didn’t know you had to do so much paperwork as a priest.” her voice sounds dreamy, the slightest slur around the edge. eren suppresses the urge to pinch her cheek. “what exactly did you think a priest had to do,” he asks, a fond smile on his lips.

she lets out a long hum. “i don’t know. help people. talk to them. tell them how to be good. teach them how to be loved by god. look pretty in your priest dress, i guess.”

eren’s pen stills, ink blotting against paper. his throat suddenly feels dry. licking his lower lip, he says slowly. “everyone is loved by ymir, mikasa. you know that.” and then, as if the words are too heavy to speak, almost stumbling, he asks, “so you think i’m pretty?”

she giggles, sounding so beautifully childish, for a second he doesn’t know what to do with himself. “father eren is the prettiest priest, in his pretty priest dress. all the girls think so.” the edges of her voice turn bitter, and it hangs in the air until she covers her mouth with her hand with a little slap, suddenly realising what she’s saying. she turns to look at him with puppy eyes and wine flushed cheeks. “but they must have told you already, haven’t they? all the things they think about you. i’m not the only one.”

he wonders then what goes on in her little head. if she thinks he talks to other girls the way he does to her, if she thinks people confess things the way she does to him. if he “teaches” them how to repent in the way he does to her. even though he is barely touching her know, it makes him feel full to the brim with guilt and something worse: a cagey, fledgling beast made of anger that wonders why she has so easily accepted that he has any kind of relationship with others, a calm knowledge that if she had even a hint of anything with anyone else he would destroy it, a sick urge to hold her face in one hand and taste her wine-slick tongue. maybe he could chastise her for drinking too much, stroke her cheek softly and tell her that if there really was a god out there, there’s no way she wouldn’t love her. how could anyone not love her. on most days he feels utterly defeated by the impossibility of it.

“think only of yourself, mikasa,” he says, hating himself for it as soon as he says it. he could’ve said anything— that there really is nobody else, no one talks to him the way she does, nobody trusts him the way she does, even if they did, he wouldn’t abuse their trust the way he does to her. “ultimately, there are no secrets between you and god. everything that goes on in here...,” he taps a finger on her head and strokes it down to her cheek, fighting desperately not to bend down and kiss her. (he could do it, he thinks. she might not even remember. why suddenly is her inebriation a moral cock blocker when his position of power never managed to have that same effect?) his voice feels hoarse as she looks up at him, chin tilting upwards in the sweetest gesture of obedience. no one has ever touched her like this, he thinks. not in the innocent way it might have seemed just now, and definitely not in the terrible ways he has touched her when he made her confess every brief fantasy she might have entertained, only to enact something ten times more depraved. it makes him feel like a bad man, but at the same time, this is probably the closest to god he has ever felt in his life.

eren has drifted off into thoughts filled with guilt and longing but mikasa is still looking at him with reverence, hanging on to his unfinished sentence like it is something holy. her eyes are cloudy grey and not as transparent as he would like. he likes it better when she is sober, when her thoughts are not the slightest bit fuzzy, but full of him and tinged with shame- shame for the desire she feels for him. he lets the edge of his index finger brush against her lip, lets himself bend and whisper over the shell of her ear. "everything little thought you have is ultimately naked in front of ymir."

@annluvazzel you have resurrected the brainrot!!

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what was hsy erens first time having sex like? i wonder if at the back of his mind he had thought of mikasa

hope ur having a great holiday ris!

thank youuuu anon! i had such a lovely holiday i truly came back feeling like a new person etc. hope you had a wonderful holiday season too!!

its been so long since ive thought of hsy eren, my baby!!! i think his first time having sex was really intense in the moment and underwhelming in the aftermath. he was probably 16 or something and a stupid kid and didn't know what he was doing. he dabbled in school sports for a bit and hung out with boys who were having sex and thinking about tits and swapping pornos on cds (yes he lived in that era), so he just thought with his dick and nearly embarrassed himself when he touched his first boob probably lol. i think he came really quickly (sorry eren lol), and tried to make up for it with enthusiastic pussy eating that he did on a purely competitive level (mikasa had raised him to be a sweet boy LMAO jk) bc you know its only fair that the girl who got him off gets to get off. so with several rounds of instruction eren manages to crack the orgasm code and eventually succeeds.

since sex was so transactional and surface level, eren didn't have too much space to think about mikasa during his first time. after, HOWEVER, he has definitely had stray thoughts about

whether mikasa was sexually active

contemplated asking mikasa for advice about orgasms and then had a little breakdown while truly considering talking about it to her face

contended with intense jealousy and hatred when he overheard her friends discussing ideal dick sizes and in particular hearing mikasa's offhand comment about an unknown penis: 'that seems kind of nice. could do the job, i suppose.' it remains unknown what mikasa was actually referring to lol

entertained vague erotic dreams about walking into her in the shower which he almost found himself doing purposefully, and then slapped himself in the face muttering: BEHAVE!

after he has sex with mikasa for the first time however, he spends several minutes in the shower (alone), shaking slightly from just how changed he feels from something he thought was so... mundane. his body feels strange, his skin loose and dewy after it has known how she feels against him: sweat slick and feverish. his lips feel changed too, like they have morphed to fit around the shape of hers. it makes him slightly anxious- simultaneously feeling as if this was who he was supposed to be all along, but slightly terrified of what he would become if he were ever to lose her.

god i had no idea i had so many feelings about hsy eren! tysm for this ask!!

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What was your favorite part of your vine fic

i love the whole thing tbh, but i really enjoyed the part where father eren puts mikasa in chastity <3

you can read the whole fic with annlu's gorgeous art in the amour zine, pre orders are open! :)

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TW: soft p0rn link🔞

https://x.com/stellarixz/status/1816995678033526951?t=WsoJgO9LGJBeqjv9K164pg&s=19

this is so bnd eremika🥹

oh goddddddd this is the hottest thing EVER!!! istg i am sleeping on twitter prn… thank you so much for sending this to me!!!

re bnd em: this is thEM because eren is obsessed with kissing her. sometimes he is just like: wow what does she taste like today, she's wearing a different lipgloss, is it plum, do you think she needs to breathe now, this isn't good for her is it, i can't stop, i can't stop god why doesn't she stop me.