Oct 17, 2021
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hnn *shaky anxiety hands*
ngl my biggest fear is my family finding this blog, like if they were ever to find it I feel like my life is basically thrown away. I have so much fear and panic around it that its a frequent nightmare I have and I’m low key worrying about it 24/7, I get no moment of peace
VLD season 7
me: I wonder what vld season 7 has in store for us!!
vld animators and writers: *creates vld season 7*
me: *binges vld season 7*
me: I WoNDeR WHaT vLd SeaSoN 8 HaS In sToRE-
i turn 26 in like ... 4 days...
MRI is tomorrow…
I’m losing my mind and nothings wrong with me. I know nothings wrong with me. I know nothing can be wrong with me physically, I know that. But I feel absolutely awful physically and it’s driving me to the absolute brink of boarderline insanity and I can’t make any of these thoughts stop. I know there’s a reason I started keeping track of the days I’ve had suicidal thoughts 3.5 years ago. I onow that, to find patterns and statistical things cause that’s what I do to keep myself from going crazy but this is just absolutely out of my mind and I don’t Inow. I’ve left my house/yard 3 times since March 15. I’ve entered one enclosed space. That’s it. I can’t try to get a job I can’t try to colenterr or learn to drive or ride the bus and I’m terrified of living like any of this much longer and I’ve said that before in the past, for years that I can’t live like this anymore and somehow I always keep hanging on and I I don’t know how I’ve done that so many times and I don’t know. I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know
My mind is floating away and I don’t know how I fake normalcy to my family so well. I jus don’t. I don’t know how I’m going to talk or anytbung. I’m so anxiety ridden. And I need this to stop
I know these times are tough especially for those of us with hypochondria and anxiety. Its tough differentiating between a panic attack and respiratory issues in that very moment. I have been running into this issue ever since i started my self- isolation. Hang in there! You’re not alone ❤️
On a side note meditation has helped me a lot with observing my body feelings and letting them be