I know you may be doing better than you were when you went into treatment initially, but you still aren't really free yet, or for that matter living life easily. Would you consider putting school on hold and doing day treatment or inpatient so that you could find that person you were when you were discharged? Maybe this admission it could be less focused on weight/numbers and maybe more on the reasons behind your ED and depression? There's no sense delaying happiness! Just a thought :)
I have to say that this message has really got me thinking. Although I know I'm okay, it hadn't hit me that I'm not aaaaaactually free. I still struggle with numbers and thoughts and that's not recovery. Thank you for looking out for me ♥
I'm going to look into what kind of treatment I could get. I don't think an inpatient or day treatment is necessary - I don't feel like I'm at that point. However, I do agree that I have fallen quite a bit and need some help to climb back up. I'm going to have to talk to my mom and see what we can get. :)
I love you Molly! Thank you for you infinite amount of support