the amount of fanfic I’ve read in my life is.....embarrassing? impressive? worrisome?
I’ve delved deep into stories in the middle of the night, spent my lunch breaks (and working hours) binging fics, spent so many hours curled on the couch or sprawled in a lounge chair or sitting in a parked car all while reading
your writing, in all those years of obsessive reading (fic and real books) is some of the best I’ve ever read.
much like what I write about, I’m usually a clown when it comes to what I read — I like happy smut, filthy smut, yearning desperate smut, slow burn smut (smh because honestly) — but YOURS
yours is the only one that simultaneously empties my head of all thoughts because of your filth and fills my head with knowledge because of your amazing capability to do both
you get into these character’s heads in a way that I can only aspire to, you describe their motivations and their emotions in such a real, honest, beautiful way — I feel smarter when I read your stuff, feel like I gained about a billion brain cells just by absorbing and rereading your fic
you’ve taught me so many things about this craft — structure, pacing, the meaning of exactly the right word — and while I don’t always use all your lessons because I’m too busy writing a fic about Frankie jerking off onto your stomach (kelli; why tho for real) they always stay with me and I can see them when I read your writing and I cannot tell you how proud I get just to know you.
I have so much left to learn from you — good thing you are such a patient and kind teacher (and then also extra filthy when it comes to Dave because you are a literal QUEEN)
feeling so grateful for you tonight, my friend.
did i cry when i read this for the first time? and the fifth? and the tenth?
the way you are beyond kind to not only think these things and then take the time to write them all out and tell me is stunning. the way you not only show support just by listening but then also by reassuring me so well. you always know what to say.
not to mention how much i have learned from you -- from chasing inspiration, from letting your style fall where it may, from not being scared of your own vision for a fic, for sticking with something you really want and love despite everything else trying to get in the way to simply letting things go when they aren’t worth your time or energy. i am truly the luckiest to learn from you.
i’m just really beyond speechless. when i’m working on the project from hell for he-who-must-not-be-named i’m going to keep reading this over and over. thank you kelli -- i love you more ❤️
(p.s. we really are the dave dream team; i provide the thot and you provide the filth ❤️)