Hii Dia!
How are you and your system doing?
I wasn't fronting until recently but we were doing fine, in fact we had better esteem for a week I think? There's an alter who's good at maintaining our esteem (Elisée) and he was conscious so I'm not super surprised, it's just hard to keep this guy in the front, he leaves so easily we're lucky he stayed out for so long TuT
Then recently we got less well, more agitated, and at first we thought it was just the more insecure alters fronting, making us act more defensive and stand-offish with some people (I feel bad for our irl lil sibling 😭). Which we were right about the alter part. BUT we also caught a fever from our dad, and that's made everything feel weird or out of place. Aaaaaaaaa...
We're getting fever dreams and luckily only one felt like a nightmare so far, the rest were kinda weird but cool I guess.
Anyways idk when you'll be reading this in your inbox but I hope you have/had fun at the movies!!
Hiiiii!! Finally getting to answer this, as we try to have a lil quiet moment... Haha, holy shit.
So-! First and foremost, think we may be wound up thanks to a new person. Trying to work through it one step atta time, with no guarantee. We'll see, right? ...New media fr.
Otherwise, we're doing alright!! Seeing Infinity Castle on a wider screen was awesome and heart-wrenching. Some winds came by this week, and it felt LOVELY; went to the park about it! Uhhh, we have a DVD set coming in of an important series to our host...and a friend of mine (in-sys) got an early birthday gift!!! It's of her crush/fave guy, so. She's so normal about that!!!! HAHaha! She'd yap everyone's ear off about it, if given half a chance... Love that for her, tho.
Ooooohh, fuck yeah!!! That had to be a weight off of y'all's shoulders... Ngl, love it when the folks who are more confident, put together, or just all around happier are around! S2g, it boosts the mood up internally a little, too. Love that!
Ugh. Feel that. It's almost always a double-thing, you know? Like, yeah, someone else's view(s) on the world def skews things, but... Then you get into the, "Oh, and I'm sick/not feeling well?" BAM! Explains so much, but you're also like... Holy shit!!! No wonder we feel like such a mess! It's all over the place! Begging the world to give us a break, for REAL! (U _ U)
Hopefully you're doing better rn! Everything's been a liiiiittle off and just. Too much, here. Need some dark room time or something, LOL.
And hope that nightmare went alright, for what it is?! 👀 We get some fucked up ones sometimes, so like...
IT WAS AWESOME!!! And I feel like a dumb, flustered case! But who cares! Fun, and now I'm gonna be hyping up my pal's shenanigans. As we do. 🩷