Oct 19, 2024
Sometimes I'm like. My compulsions aren't that serious, they don't affect my life in any meaningful way, it's just a little uncomfortable and inconvenient sometimes when I ignore them (because I can ignore a lot more of them now, since meds change a year ish ago). And so I forget they exist.
Then I unintentionally do something I knew triggered compulsions because it's been a while since I did it and I forgot and remember why I put the things in place so that I. Don't have to do that thing anymore. Hm.
#I got the sectioned dice bag for a REASON#it is UNCOMFORTABLE to have my dice out of the bag and not sorted in one of a few very particular ways#and because I have a lot of dice this organizing is very time consuming#and I'm uncomfortable the whole time#anyways sectioned dice bag good we love sectioned dice bag#(unrelated but this got me thinking and I realized that like. compulsions were pretty bad like two years back)#(to the point of. being very glad to have quit one job and moved to another#because compulsions were getting in the way of work at the first job)#(and I got stuck in buildings because I couldn't walk on the sidewalk outside of them)#(and I still don't *like* walking on that sidewalk but I can *do* it now)#anyways. thoughts.#genuinely they aren't bad at the moment#just inconvenient
