#apoca2hiit

[quantumkaworu]

[[READ MORE]] Damn it I hate cis boys with their flat chests and bulging pants and xx chromosomes!!!! Ughhh!!! It's not fair they get to do everything that I want to so but sadly my manliness is only in spirit!!! Ugh cos boys can cosplay kaworu nagisa!!!! And shinji!!! And all the people I want to cosplay with half the effort!!! And all transmen like me can be mosgendered all the time!!! " I'm a boy actually" isn't me saying I'm cosplay a dude I'm saying I am one!!! They can go swimming on hot days and wear good fitting clothes!!!! I'm so mad!!!!! I hate this body it is not mine!!!!!

[quantumkaworu]

[quantumkaworu]

My anxiety over anime stems from the toxic friendship I had with sarah cos she was always competing with me on who watched the most and who knew the most and we would always get into disputes over who was which character and it sounds really petty but to 3rd-8th grade me that was a really big deal so now I feel like I have to know everything about an anime or character to be considered a 'fan'. That's also why I'm afraid to cosplay a character that my friend has because I'm afraid they'll think I'm stealing from them or trying to out do them like sarah did.

[quantumkaworu]

I always hate parent holidays cos it's like yay you emotionally and mentally abused me and stalked me and you disregarded my mental health for a cheating sleaze bag now let's have cake happy fathers/mothers day

[quantumkaworu]

I really REALLY want to cosplay Raven and/or Starfire sometime in my cosplay career but like my dad has the majour hots for them both and always makes me feel uncomfortable with his comments about my body so it's kind of like ughhhh like it's not even a body type issue I have no problem showing my midriss or showing my legs ( I love my legs) it's just I don't want my dad making remarks about how hot I am because I know he has the hots for like every teenage girl

[quantumkaworu]

No mom please go on. Please tell me what I want with my body. Please tell me that I don't want no boobs I just want small boobs. Please keep invalidating my gender identity thank you.

[quantumkaworu]

At the dance yesterday a lot of people were looking at Riley and I and it made me uncomfortable like I don't know of they were making fun of us or not but I was really embarrassed but I had a lot of fun I just didn't feel that sex in my dress like I know I looked good but I wish I had some kind of like sexier pinup esque dress I don't I've just been wanted to feel really sexy lately I guess I'm just horny and lonely idk

[quantumkaworu]

its like I can't even take a full breath anymore i just want to hold my breath and my eyes are watering i am just so mad at myself if feels like theres a textbook on my chest but I can't let out my anger or anything I can't show any emotion!11111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I want to hit myself but i know that won't do any good!! i am so tired