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[91cmh]

This is the first, and last time, I will be addressing  Theodore & their mun.

No, Minho didn’t cheat on him.

Actually, they disappeared on me without telling me anything, nor my muse. Prior to that happening, they did say they were going to be busy, and we were totally fine with that. We didn’t expect the entire disappearance, however. 

Regardless of that, my muse tried again and again to get in contact with them, and it was hard, they wouldn’t respond. It was frustrating, of course, but then that frustration turned into worry. I was genuinely worried about the mun and if they were okay. I was actually scared.

They have a friend, that I will not be naming here, that I went to ask if they were okay, because I was really worried. The last thing I wanted was for something to have happened to them, but then they came back once, and that was relieving. They, rudely, didn’t explain anything that happened -- but looking back now, I don’t want to assume the worst. I was just glad they were okay.

To this day, they still haven’t tried to contact, and has disappeared entirely, to my knowledge. So, that’s my side of things. It wasn’t an in character problem, but more so out of; though, I wouldn’t call it a problem because I completely understand mun life getting busy. That is completely understandable, and that should never be held against the mun under any circumstances, I completely understand when life gets hard, you gotta jet. That’s fine.

I also don’t want hate for Theo or their mun, they went off for their own reasons that even I don’t know to this point since I wasn’t told anything, and I won’t be judging them based off of a situation that I don’t know of. I have no ill feelings against them, and I hope they really are doing well now.

As for Minho now being with Taemin, well, that’s none of your business, and nothing to do with Theodore, so we’ll leave it at that.

With that being said, I now ask that no more anons be sent about this, or Theo, because they won’t be answered or acknowledged in any way, shape, or form. I’m not into OOC drama. I hate it, in fact. I do not like talking OOC in general. But the fact of the matter is, this was a very OOC situation. Our muses were fine, completely fine, nothing was wrong there.

Also, please do well to mind your business where it doesn’t concern you, nor your muse. This community is building up with senseless hate, and it’s disgusting. 

Do your part, and stay in your lane.

[91cmh]

I love you, Minho.

〈 ♐ ` ₉ ₁ 〉╾ “Ehh- I love you too- No, I love you more.”

[91cmh]

Just wondering why you're so handsome.

〈 ♐ ` ₉ ₁ 〉╾ “Not too sure what I can do about the concept of the unknown, but hey, take as much of a gander as you please; this is the face you’re going to see until the day you die.”

[91cmh]

Just here to drop an "I miss you" daily message because I think I have separation anxiety. I'm a child.

〈 ♐ ` ₉ ₁ 〉╾ “Can I drop by and give myself to you, sweet anxious child of mine?” he chuckled. “I miss you too, Theo.”

[91cmh]

I switch been one and eight, then again actually all of those faces in one day. I'm sure you're used to them by now. Right Minho-- Right-

〈 ♐ ` ₉ ₁ 〉╾ He laughed behind his hand in thought. “Is it weird that I stared at these pictures long enough to know exactly which ones you’re referring to?” he snorted. “Ah.. Yeah- Yeah, sure, Love,” he cleared his throat.

[91cmh]

How do you feel about Theo?

HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT ____ !

〈 ♐ ` ₉ ₁ 〉╾ Minho stared at the other for a long while, his smile having faded, though not for any bad reason; only because his mind had suddenly come to a halt. The question was straight forward and simple, though, perhaps it wasn’t as simple as it sounded. Not for Theo. 

“Well..” he started, clearing his throat lightly.

“That should be a really question, right? You know I love you, and you know how much I adore you, but.. Ah, perhaps I should expand my thoughts a little more,” he smiled, reaching to take Theo’s hand with a soft hum, “If you have the time,” he sighed out. Another pause took place before he continued.

“How I feel about you.. Is so broad, because you know, I feel so many things with you. Happiness is one of those feelings, of course, and honestly.. It’s a happiness I’ve never had before. This kind of happiness.. I feel it through your fingers when you hold my hand, when you touch my chest.. I feel it past your lips when you kiss me- Oh, when you kiss me.. It’s like I’m connecting to my spirit, a higher being- Sound cheesy to say it like that, but I don’t know how else to describe it.. You put me on cloud nine. 

Speaking of cloud nine, there’s my passionate feelings for you.. Lust, if you may; there comes this sudden need for you, and I don’t know why, but it’s so constant. My need for you is a feeling that I’ve never really encountered before either.. I mean- I think I’ve told you before that I’m not a overly sexual person, right? But, seriously- You just.. Something about the way you look at me when you want me- The way you touch me to show me your need, slowly, our desires for one another grows mutual.. God, I’d like to describe more, but let’s keep that part between us- Aigoo.

I feel a lot of other things too, as I’ve said.. For, there’s happiness- But then, there’s sadness.. Or, rather, fear. I feel happiness through your gaze, but then.. That fear sets in so quickly; it’s faint beside the happiness, but it’s there, and I feel it.. The fear that this happiness is going to be snatched from me, the fear that these eyes, these orbs of such bronze light that I wait to open up to me every morning, to the ones that I resentfully put to rest at the end of the day.. The thought of losing that- It’s a natural fear, right?

Generally.. You make me feel human. You make me feel human, because you make me feel loved in a way that I’m only just discovering now, and honestly.. If this is what I’ve been missing for years, then I feel resent towards the universe for only giving you to me now; because you’re the one. The one for me, the one I need, and most important, the one I want.. I want you, and everything that comes with you -- Specifically the feelings you give me, you see?

So, how do I feel about you? I feel the universe with you, Baby.. My moon, my stars, and all.”

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there had always been something restless deep within his very soul, as though it were the cause for his trembling hands and shaking bones, the very fear of life and living driven deep into his weak spine. 

he likes to the doubt the cruelty that humanity has made for themselves. he’s always believed in the kindness of the heart, rather than the frailty of it. though he wonders on occasion if they ever meant the same-- then, he remembers, that sometimes strength persists within kindness, for not everyone has the heart to shame cruelty back towards the tiny corner of the mind. he remembers this now, with the awkward way that he’s bent over, his eyes searching along the floor and over the mountain of his shoes and the bend of his knees and the river of veins in his arms. he straightens only because he felt it proper to, and attempts to shake whatever restlessness deep inside him out into a shaky laugh. people were strange, and so was he. while he could understand, it didn’t mean he would approve.

he likes to doubt the cruelty that humanity has made for themselves, but sometimes it’s difficult when he sees it right in front of him.

“I don’t know.” he looks out into the blaze of tail lights following their lover home, and the dimmed sea of street lights trying to illuminate some forgotten path. “I ain’t no damn drug dealer. I don’t know.” he spits out lies like he spits out seeds. there’s a pain in his jaw, makes his whole head ache. “you really shouldn’t. you really, really fuckin’ shouldn’t. that stuff ain’t good for you man. addiction ? addiction is so bad.” he knows, he knows, he knows. jungkook wants to slam his fist against his own chest and scream and cry, tell theo to fuck off. but he knows.

he knows. 

“I don’t know. stop asking.”