i think you should explain to him how to only way you're going to be happy is at a college in ny, or some place else. after all, how are you gonna love him and be excited to see him if you hate where you are? don't bluntly say "i don't wanna be here anymore". talk about the benefits of a school somewhere else, maybe show him a few. exaggerate your optimism toward a far away school. remind him you'll always love your parents, and they would never lose you. <33
of course i wouldn’t confess how i feel harshly to my dad like that. i mean, he’s a really sensitive person. despite how pushy he is, he’s very sensitive and blunt and true about his feelings towards what i want to do and my ambitions and things like that.
i just need to definitely do more research on what colleges i want to go to. i mean, i don’t want to go to a community college honestly, and im not saying they’re bad, but i would just prefer a different college you know?
im just so tired of him pushing me down and i know it’ll hurt him if i go far away but it’s not like it’s forever. it’s only one state. and i know definitely in the future when i get my own place and my own job and have my own money im going to be travelling and going everywhere and it’d be good if he started realizing really soon i want to do these things. i just want him to let go a little bit right now and see what happens.
of course i’ll always love him and my mom and of course i’ll miss them a shit ton if i go out of state, but i need to take these oppurtunities. i don’t want to pass them because what if they take me to even bigger and better places, you know?
