Ok so just rambling to the void cuz why not
I have this squish and I really enjoy his company. (It is not my IRL BFF he's a completely different story lol)
Like I enjoy texting her and listening to his headcannons and when I met her, I didn't feel like I had to explain myself to him. She's so chill to be around that I get excited when he DMs me something and I feel sad when I miss her messages.
Most of my close friends know my lore (the fucked up shit about me due to me venting) like almost right away (which isn't inherently a bad thing) but with this squish, I never felt like I needed to share that part of myself to feel close to him. It was a breath of fresh air just chatting with her and sharing headcannons and learning new stuff. Of course he knows some of my history and I do feel comfortable venting to her. But I love how when I'm chatting with him, it's mostly about our interests and stories and her headcannons gets my mind off the horrible things that happened to me.
I even sorta learned what the term "squish" meant because of him. (My squish is on the acespec spectrum and I don't have romantic feelings for her but I googled if there was something such as a platonic crush for people who are asexual, aromantic, acespec, etc.)
But like I really do enjoy being around him and sometimes I picture cuddling with her, dancing in long skirts, taking him out to Dave and Buster's or taking her to Barnes and Noble, petting his fluffy cat, showing her the twilight series for the first time because he's never seen it, maybe drawing together with her alcohol markers, and just seeing him in real life in general. She means a lot to me but sometimes I feel too nervous to actually tell him that because... I never actually experienced having a squish before. And I know that I can be a bit much and go overboard.
I'm sure if she sees this he'll either know who it's for or not. Either way I'm happy to have her in my life.
