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Pantone. : describe a person close to your life in detail.
If I heard the name Jung Soojung, I would think of: unfinished cups of coffee, flower arrangements, and reflecting glass. Tiny feet running down the hallway and half-unwrapped candies. Listening to old vinyls as the trains drive by. I would think of strawberry shampoo. I would think of the ocean crashing against the shoreline. I would think of quiet. I would think of my baby sister.
If I heard the name Jung Seojun, I would think of: tossed duvets and baby’s breath, lipstick stains on mugs of morning brew, a kitten purring into my hand. Neon lights spelling out “it is what it is” and “fuck me if i’m wrong, but” somewhere below it. A hand always in mine and soft childish whispers and giggles beneath blankets. I would think of fire. I would think of curiosity. I would think of my other half. I would think of my twin brother.
If I heard the name Jung Taekwon, I would think of: nights when the street lamps flickered out completely. A staircase that leads to nowhere and all the drugs it would take to imagine that. Falling asleep in a bathtub filled with ice water fully-clothed. I would think of bloodied noses and knuckles. I would think of my father. And then I would think of nothing and nothing at all.
Bands. : talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.
empty : metricThere was no way out, the only way out was to give inThere was no way out, the only way out was to give inHow I love to give in
The first stanza speaks to his childhood, or all of his life before incarceration at 14. He did not have a smooth sailing relationship with a lot of people, except with his twin brother Seojun. It is his curse that ached to commit crimes and because of it, he seemed to believe he had no real control over his compulsion to fulfill these acts of violence.
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies downWhere no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies downAsk the line on your face what the line on your hand meantWe couldn’t see what was coming
The second stanza reminds him of time spent in the detention home: uniformed nature, contemplation of release, reflection on his actions leading him to his current state. He’s frozen in a time warp of uncertainty and remorse.
Shake your head it’s emptyShake your hips move your feetShake your head it’s emptyShake your hips move your feet
The third stanza depicts his destruction upon entering the workforce. He cannot attain a proper job because of his history. His father utilizes Junseo’s marked record as ammunition to try to puppet him. Junseo acts out and their last altercation cuts ties.
I’m so glad that I’m an island I’m so glad that I’m an island I’m so glad that I’m an island now
A single line repeated is a representation of how Junseo feels of being disowned. He’s alone and away from the ties of being attached to the main land. The repetition of it also symbolizes a mantra he tells himself when he doesn’t believe that the choice he made was the right one for him.
Sickness was fixing me someCoughed out my heart in the last stallNow that the damage is doneI never miss it at all
The final stanza solidifies where Junseo stands now. He acknowledges what his life has been up until this point and knows that it is what it is and as he will not care to emulate it once again, it will not define him either. Metric’s Empty in fact does not just affect his life but write it out in poetry, if seen that way.