It's 1am. You're probably asleep and here I am drowning. All I want more than anything is to have you sleeping next to me, to hear your breathing and feel your skin against mine. I want to dance in front of you and sing as loud as I can just to make you laugh. I want to take you to stores and watch your eyes light up when you see your favorite items. I wanna listen to your favorite song and watch your favorite movies just to hear you say every word. I want to go back to that night under the stars when I held you, pressed against me, tighter than I've ever held anyone. I want to rewind to when we'd go on for hours and hours about how much we wish we could explain how much we loved each other but always knew it was impossible. I want to buy you minions, and socks and snapbacks and syrups with a hint of red bull. I want to drive around aimlessly with you listening to music with our fingers intertwined. I want to hear everything you have to say when you're happy, and sad, and lost, and broken, and tired, and hopeful, and everything else. I want to hear you whisper you love me before we go to sleep every night together for the rest of our lives. I want to watch you follow your dreams and have you come home to me every night and tell me all about your day. I want to build your dream house on the beach where we don't have to worry about anything except being together. I want to be enough for you. I want you to love me. I wanted you more than anything. Even if you couldn't see that.
