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Life update?

I’m not dead, I’m also not on Tumblr much anymore but that’s nothing new. If you’ve followed me recently, hello, welcome, I occasionally spam and queue stuff, but mostly I make vague posts about my mental/emotional state as of late.

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I kind of feel like I”m falling into a void. Great feeling, really. I was hoping responsibility would come back to me but it miraculously hasn’t. Oh well.

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remember like two weeks ago when I was messing with my theme

well I forgot about it until now

but the good news is it’s done

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currently updating theme pls hold

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That feeling when Tumblr messenger shows up better on the app than the actual website

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in more personal news

is there anyone who took/is currently taking meds for anxiety who could tell me a little about it

I know it’s personal, and I only ask because I have high anxiety myself and I’m trying to figure out if I should look into meds for it

I’ve seen a counselor for it and I’ve had pretty bad generalized anxiety most of my life, including childhood, so I’m not a stranger to anxiety. I know it like the back of my hand.

But I’m starting to do so much with my life and the anxiety is just... harder to deal with. I could explain a lot more but I don’t want to put it out on a public area.

So yeah anyone willing to talk about personal anxiety med related stuff that’d be rad, please message me. I could really use the advice.

edit: whatever we talk about will remain between us I’m not going to post about it anywhere or anything

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It’s really weird and kind of lonely that I’m the only one of my current friends in college.

Like, I’m planning for my future and grad school and thinking about what I want to do with my life and who I will be in five years and the people around me are just enjoying the moment cause they don’t have fantastical future plans.

And that’s okay, I’m not trying to say I’m above my friends or anything, it’s just that I’m at a certain stage in my life where I’m planning my future out and they’re happy with what they have, or they’re waiting for the right moment.

It’s weird.

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I know we’re all excited about the new year, but looking back in 2015... I don’t know if this was a good year for me.

I spent the last half of the year being too stuck in figuring out my future and fighting my anxiety over things I couldn’t control. The first half of the year was better I think, but I felt like I lost a part of myself to something this year. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or  not yet.