requested by the wonderful @trkstrnd i am so sorry this took so long but I hope you enjoy and thank you for requesting! 💗
also big big shout out to @buckleymanes for again being the best beta reader, and helping me out with ideas for this! 💛
Title: My home is next to you
Summary: After getting injured on a job TK patches himself up confident it is a minor injury and everything is fine. Hours later Carlos comes home to find a trail of blood throughout his house and TK nowhere to be found.
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TK looked down at his hand.
Blood.
The spot on his shirt that was once clear was now red and growing wider.
Shit, shit shit.
TK must not have tightened the bandage enough. He stumbled forward, blinking his eyes quickly. Moments later, he appeared in the bathroom. He didn’t remember walking to the bathroom or climbing the stairs. TK stumbled forward, his hands reaching out to grasp the sink, but he missed, his body crashing to the ground.
Carlos pushed his front door open, rolling his shoulders as the tension left his body. Carlos placed his keys in the bowl, noticing TK’s keys were also on the side, “Hey Ty,” He greeted, looking around the room. TK wasn’t here; he must be upstairs. Carlos frowned, “I thought you had a late shift tonight?” He asked; TK wasn’t meant to be done for another hour or so. The house was quiet, with no sign that TK was here. His shoes weren’t by the door like normal; there were no cups on the side or jacket on the couch, “I thought we’d try that new place around the corner for dinner tonight?” He shrugged his jumper off and hung it on the hook by the door, “TK?” He called again.
Carlos stopped moving, listening. He turned around, walking deeper into the living room, “TK you here,” He asked, his voice more severe and deep; something felt off . Carlos frowned harder, his mouth parted as he looked around. Carlos started to head to his staircase, going to take a step when he froze...
So this was written for the flash fic challenge on one of the amazing tarlos discord servers, thank you to @djdangerlove who arranged this💗
20 minutes to write and the prompt was: "I let you down" + the word "Savor"
Title: Stay close to people who feel like sunshine.
Summary: TK attends a call which brings back feelings and memories he had buried deep. After, Carlos and Tommy provide TK with some words of advice and comfort.
There had been a party occurring and the crew had been called out as a boy had collapsed and no one knew why. As they weaved through the crowd and heard the mummers an idea of what had happened, TK gripped the medical bag next to him harder, his knuckles growing white. When they reached the boy two of his friends were sitting next to him, shaking his unmoving body.
One of the boys looked up at the EMT crew, his eyes shining with tears, “He-he took something, I don’t know what,” TK felt the cold realisation run through his body. He stopped in his tracks, the bag in his hand dropping to the ground with a thud.
“You don’t know what he took?” He heard Tommy ask, kneeling down to check the boys pulse.
The kid shook his head, running his hands through his hair, “Some pills I think? Molly, Oxy I don’t know?” He stuttered, stumbling back from his friend.
TK kelt next to the young boy, he must have been around 16 maybe 17, practically a child. TK could see Tommy and Nancy saying something to him, their lips moving and their faces screwed up in worry, but TK could hear nothing.
The only thing he could hear was the intense beating of his heart and the ringing in his ears. TK’s hands were frozen in front of him as he just stared at the pale face of the boy, he should do something, he needed to help. He wanted to help, wanted to move his hands but he couldn’t, his breathing caught in his throat and TK just watched as his crew mates worked to save his life.
TK felt a presence next to him, hands reaching out to help his captain.
Carlos.
The three of them worked and after chest compressions and Narcan the kid surged forward, coughing and gagging, Tommy turned him onto his side and the kid began to breathe again. He was alive, TK could hear as people around started to calp but TK still didn’t move, his breathing still quick and harsh in his chest. Tommy and Nancy spoke to the boy, moving him onto the gruny they had wheeled in with them. TK managed to move his fingers, then his hand and eventually he was able to stand up, his legs feeling weak and unsteady. Tommy and Nancy wheeled the boy out of the room and TK watched as Carlos picked up the medical bag by TK’s feet, his hand coming to rest on his lower back, TK savoured the comforting touch but it did little to subside the guilt welling in his chest, “Come on, lets go,” Carlos whispered leading TK out of the room.
TK sat on the curb, his hands linked together, his elbows resting on his knees. TK played with his fingers, looking down at the tarmac “You okay?” Tommy said, coming to sit next to him.
TK stared ahead, his fingers fidgeting harder, “I froze,” He whispered, “The kid was lying there dying and I just...froze,” TK continued, his voice getting caught in his throat like the words didn’t want to leave, like if he didn’t say them they might not be true. He looked over at his captain, her image growing blurry as tears pricked the corner of his eyes, “I let you down,” He croaked.
Tommy cocked her head to the side, “No you didn’t TK,” She comforted.
“Carlos had to step in I-” TK just shook his head, the tears rolling down his cheek, “I wanted this job so bad and I screwed it up,” he said, a sad laugh escaping his lips
“Do you remember my first day?” Tommy asked. TK gave a small nod, “When I was at the roller derby, when I was looking down at that girl…” TK looked back over at his captain as he stopped talking, her eyes seemingly focusing on a spot in the distances, “I froze,” She admitted, TK felt his eyes growing wider “It doesn’t mean you're a bad paramedic if you freeze, it means you’re human,” She smiled, reaching out to give his knee a small squeeze.
TK took in a large breath, noticing Carlos coming over to the pair. Tommy gave a final squeeze before standing up, Calros coming to sit down next to TK, “Hey,” He softly said.
“Hey,” TK smiled, “Thank you, for stepping in,” TK sighed, “You shouldn’t of had to do that,”
“Tommy and Nancy had it handled,” Carlos said, reaching out to entwine his fingers with TK’s “It’s okay Ty,” Carlos soothed.
“I just-” TK bit his lip, “I just saw that kid and all I could think about was...” He trailed off, looking over at Carlos, his face showing he understood what TK was going to say. All he could think about was New York, all he could think about was himself lying lifeless on the floor.
Carlos leaned forward, placing a kiss on TK’s forehead, his own forehead coming to rest on it, “It’s alright,” He whispered. Carlos moved his head back, taking his hand from TK’s and wrapping it around TK’s shoulder, pulling him closer. TK felt the tension start to drain from his body as he rested against Carlos' side. “You did good TK,” Carlos said into TK’s hair.
“I didn’t do anything,” TK muttered against Carlos' shoulder, “You, Tommy and Nancy saved him,” TK said.
TK felt Carlos take in a deep breath, “You’re not the only person who has froze at a scene Ty,” TK looked up at Carlos, still not moving from his side, “Yeah we’re first responders but we’re also people, and sometimes people struggle,” TK knew it made sense, he never judged anyone who had froze at a scene, after all their jobs were far from easy. But TK didn’t freeze, TK ran towards danger with a smile on his face yet today when someone had needed him...
“I got this job to help people,” TK argued, his brows pulled together.
“You do TK,” Carlos said, “I have watched you saved life after life and deal with impossible circumstances,” TK turned his head so he was resting it on Carlos shoulder again, “You’re a great paramedic TK, please don’t ever forget that,” Carlos whispered, placing a kiss on the top of TK’s head.
TK watched as Tommy and Nancy closed the back of the ambulance door, “I should get going, shifts not over,” TK sighed, reluctantly pulling his head from Carlos' shoulder. TK gave a pout as Carlos unwrapped his arm from around TK, the pair of them standing up.
Carlos reached out, wrapping his arms around TK’s shoulder, “Alright, I’ll see you tonight?” He asked.
TK smiled, nodding, “Of course,” TK moved forward, placing a kiss against Carlos lips, “I love you,” He soothed.
Carlos smiled back, placing a kiss on TK’s cheek, watching as the man's smile grew, “I love you too Ty,” Carlos breathed, pulling his arms back.
TK gave Carlos’s hand a quick squeeze before he jogged back to the truck, jumping in the front of the vehicle next to Nancy who was at the wheel.
“You ready?” Nancy asked.
TK looked out the passenger window, watching as Carlos gave him a small wave, a soft smile on his face. TK smiled as he spoke, “Yeah I’m ready,” He breathed, savouring the sight of the man he loved as they pulled out of the lot.
summary: after learning about the helicopter crash and the commanders refusals to send a rescue team, TK calls Carlos for support (essentially me sprinkling some tarlos h/c on this episode)
written for myself (lol) for the @badthingshappenbingo prompt ‘voice breaking’
TK’s knuckles were white from clenching his fist too hard, and gritted his teeth from the effort to remain silent as the captain in front of him told the team they couldn’t go rescue his dad.
“They could be bleeding out right now. Dying!” TK’s words exuded an animosity that was like acid - burning, slicing, potent, how could this man keep him from his captain, his dad.
“Son, we haven’t had any cell or radio contact since the mayday.” TK clenched harder at the use of the word son. This man wasn’t TK’s dad, his actual father was currently being abandoned on a fire engulfed mountain. “Nobody else is risking their lives tonight, and your father would be the first one to agree with me,” TK raised his eyes from the table, looking at the man that was the sole thing keeping him from his father. He pushed himself off the table and turned, walking out of the tent ignoring the voices that called to him. He also ignored the thick smoke that was travelling through the air as he walked aimlessly through the base.
The helicopter had gone down. His dad had been in it.
TK kept his hands clenched tight next to him, dismissing the pain that shot through his aching arms. TK came to a halt, pacing on the spot.
They couldn’t just leave his dad out there, he could be hurt, or stuck or-TK shook his head trying to break the thoughts apart. He bit down hard on his bottom lip to stop it from trembling, now wasn’t the time for crying or feelings, it was the time to do something.
But there wasn’t anything to do, they wouldn’t sanction a rescue mission, TK was stuck here and his dad was stuck up in the mountains surrounded by fire and ash.
TK felt the fear and anger inside him convulsing. Every muscle felt tight, sprung for action and yet TK could just pace on the spot, his body screamed at him to race towards the mountain where he knew his dad was, but he just paced.
Trying to wake them up. Diamond of the day. Our boy Merlin!
You know what to do. 💔😘
OOF this was a tough one to write but I did love writing it! Thank you so much for this prompt and I hope you enjoy it!💛
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Title: It's hard being left behind, It's hard to be the one who stays.
Summary: The battle for Camelot had been won, Morgana had been defeated and Merlin had his magic back. Yet, it didn't feel like they had won as Merlin battles to save Arthur's life, the true reality of his density becomes apparent.
Fandom/pairing/prompt: Merlin/Merthur/Trying to wake them up
Word Count: 2.2k
@badthingshappenbingo for @shut-up-merlin
Merlin and Arthur stared at the body of Morgana Pendragon sprawled out in the ground, the blood pooling from her stomach mixing into the mud and grass below; magic was returning to the earth. The only noise that could be heard was Merlin and Arthur's panting, Merlin sheathed the sword in his belt, rushing over to Arthur, wrapping his hand around his shoulder.
Arthur’s eyes never left his sister, and Merlin tried hard not to picture the kind and merciful girl he had first met lying dead on the floor. “Come on. We have to make it to the lake.” Merlin grunted, all off Arthur’s weight resting on him.
They walked a few more steps till Arthur slipped, Merlin unable to hold him anymore as they dropped to the ground, Arthur laying on top of Merlin. He tried to move out from under the king, grunting and panting but he didn’t budge.
“Merlin...not without the horses.” Arthur gasped, making no effort to move off of Merlin. Merlin managed to stagger to his feet slightly, but he felt Arthur’s hand patting the top of his, “We can't, it's too late. It's too late.” His voice was weak, barely above a whisper.
“No.” Merlin ordered, falling back down to the ground as his arms wrapped around Arthur’s chest tighter, it wasn’t too late, that simply wasn’t true. Merlin just needed to get him to the lake, they were so close, he could fix this.
AJ I HOPE YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL VALENTINES DAY. I ADORE YOU. THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP W MY SHIT.
i couldn’t ask for a better bff🥺💞you deserve the world!!! (okay sorry for the ✨soft✨back to our normal ✨angst✨🗑👸🏻👸🏼🗑👵🏻)
💗ASHELY💗 I HOPE YOU ARE HAVING A WONDERFUL VALENTINES DAY, andddddd 🎉 BIRTHDAY 🎉 (and it’s not putting up with your shit because I ADORE YOU)
I am so happy I get to call you my best friend you are the kindest most thoughtful person I know and you deserve the absolute BEST because you are the best 💛💛
I love the found family aspect of the show, I love seeing how TK, Paul, Marjan, Mateo and Judd are all from different backgrounds and come together at the 126 and form this family, and then we see them bond and form friendships/relationships with Carlos.
I just love seeing the growth in these characters like TK and Judd who were both dealing with their trauma when they started at the new 126 and how they helped each other and got support from their new family.
52. Which scene would you erase from your memory?
I know I should probably say something deep but like the first scene that came to my mind was when kitten crusher broke her arm at the roller derby and Tommy had to reset it, I just-i just cant with broken bones I couldn't watch that whole scene but what I saw I want gone from my mind
october • name the darkest or angstiest fic you have written and/or posted? You mean 90% of my fics lol? No okay umm I’d have to say top three:
Hello and Goodbye: I mean this deals with malexs relationship over the lost decade, from the shed incident to alex going to war and losing friend to them finally parting, one of the few fics which doesn’t have a conventional happy ending
You deserve peace: this looks at TK struggling with his addiction and trying not to relapse while dealing with emotional issues he thought he left in NY so the early part of it is v ansgty but we’ve got some comfort in there
It’s hard being left behind: I mean this is a fic about the Diamond of the day and Merlin and Arthur’s lasts moments together, it’s pure ansgt like 100% I broke my own heart writing this
today • have you made any progress in any wips today? YES (I’m so glad I can finally answer yes to this question) and THANK YOU for asking I’ve been screaming all week at you I haven’t been able to write today but I’ve almost completed my WIP
