fleabag reader and hotch breeding kink thoughts...
OOOF BREEDING KINK OK. OK!!!! I genuinely never thought about it with them, so sorry if this sounds a bit fucke up, but #hear me out
Hotch probably has it, but doesn't talk about it because he doesn't even realize it's a thing. Or that it's... like... how to say. Allowed. It's very much a lmao I thought everyone kind of thinks that too situation. He'd probably hear the term, associate it with the kind of extreme fetishes he's seen in case files, and immediately dismiss it as something people only confess to during interrogations lmaooooooo
It wouldn't even occur to him that it could be normal that it could belong to the realm of intimacy rather than pathology. So it's not that he's repressed about it, he's just... completely unaware he's allowed to want something like that (does it make sense??)
It's more of a 'so I have a secret...' kind of energy that never fully makes it to the surface. He's sexually illiterate and painfully vanilla, but more like in a nobody ever told me I could explore this way. He'd probably think the appeal comes from some primitive need for closeness or permanence, and he'd rationalize it to death before he ever calls it a kink.
On the other hand, if she has it, it's her biggest secret. The one she'd never ever tell him (especially not sober) because she knows what it implies. Because of that slight dom/sub undercurrent that sneaks into it, the way it's about power as much as it's about trust. She'd rather swallow the thought than risk him misunderstanding it, thinking it's literally about wanting to get pregnant with his hyper-organized, rule-abiding, FBI-certified offspring
And yet, he'd probably notice eventually. He always does. #Profiler. She's too much of an open book around him, and he's too attuned to her shifts... sooooooooo...
But still. She'd never admit it. Not out loud. Maybe.
Of course LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTSSS!!! I'm curious as much as you are!!!
MAAAAAN this is hard! You have to factor in a lot… and depending on how you headcanon his parents, that can shift things, but the baseline, in my opinion, is that no matter what, he grows up with the persistent belief that: he is only as good as his last achievement and that he is never enough.
That sense of duty he carries as an adult starts in school. School becomes the obligation. He treats studying like performance, and if he doesn’t meet (or exceed) his usual standard, he feels guilty, like he’s let everyone down. Because if he’s not achieving, then what is he, exactly?
No one (and probably not even himself) ever really sees him as a person, so he fills every second. He’s always busy. Clubs, committees, anything that justifies staying out of the house a little longer. He probably does his homework in his school library.
He always knew he was going to end up in law because, again, that is his duty. So he starts early. And he reframes it as a kind of blessing: this is the one stage where he’s allowed not to be perfect and where mistakes are still (kind of) permissible. If he puts in the work now, if he studies enough, gets ahead, eliminates every gap… then by the time it actually matters, he won’t make mistakes.
He’s competitive, but he is not a showoff.
It also never really translates into team sports because failure is public and shared. He’ll participate just to blend in if he really has to, maybe even working out lineups with coaches, but he’ll always prefer individual disciplines because, at the end of the day, he cannot control what others do or feel.
He doesn’t try new things. Trying something new means risking being bad at it, and why risk that when he can simply avoid it?
Friend to many, best friend to none. He knows everyone, but give it a few weeks without contact and it’s like he’s back to square one. So he narrows it down and keeps it manageable.
Romantic connections are… off the table. Not until he’s certain he can be exactly what the other person would need. Not until he can provide. There’s this voice in his head that keeps insisting that love is something you earn after you can sustain a family.
For fuck’s sake, he’s just a teenager!!! But what if they need him?
The problem is, the second he feels like he’s failed, the whole structure collapses. Which is ironic, because it happens all the time, because in his mind he could always have done more. There’s always something missing.
He wants attention but the moment it’s on him, he pulls away.
He starts smoking more to blend in rather than as a mere act of rebellion. To test something, too. To see if anyone notices. If his parents care enough to stop him. They probably don’t. Or at least, not in the way he needs.
He outgrows the religion his mother raised him with, or maybe he just thinks too much and became too analytical to believe in it the same way. Either way, the faith is gone. But he still goes to church because it makes her happy, because not going would feel like failure. But without belief, it all feels hollow. So he replaces it.
The law feels perfect to him. It’s rules that make sense, systems he can understand but also, that he master. There’s beauty in the language, in the interpretation some parts demand, and in the almost mathematical certainty of others, where there’s only one right answer. Justice, and the values a handful of enlightened minds once wrote down and made real........
Hi! So following up from your (incredible) breakdown of Hotch's apartment, I've always wondered why stayed in the apartment to raise Jack after Foyet/100 and I'd love to hear your thoughts about it!
Obviously, his and Haley's marital house was out after everything but the same apartment he got stabbed in is wild to me and to then to Jack who was held hostage by the guy who stabbed Hotch by the dining table? I get if it was for security with less points of direct entry but Foyet got in??? Is there a garden or green space for Jack to play in? Does Hotch do a background check on all new tenants?
Anyway, this is not anti-apartment slander because I happily live in one myself but I'm so interested in why Hotch would since he clearly has the means (Rolex watches are not cheap lmao) and this feels like the right platform to discuss it haha what do you think?
Breaking down Hotch's apartment layout until someone from Criminal Minds slides into my DMs with the damn floorplans: (The Empire Strikes Back)
I’ve thought about this a lot (maybe too much) and I honestly believe Hotch stayed in that apartment building for a mix of reasons. It’s not just one thing. Maybe one factor weighed heavier than the others, but ultimately, I picture him doing one of those classic pros and cons lists, like the fussy man he is, and letting the whole picture guide the decision... does it make sense??
Now, if we look at the architectural typology of his building, we know it follows a comb-plan layout - meaning it features two semi-enclosed, semi-public green spaces that are open toward the street. (I even made a little sketch to visualize it because I’m a visual learner... Like, I don’t know what “Hotch’s hands” means until I see them. Someone please send references...pls???)
That said, the green spaces aren’t the reason he stayed. Sure, the building has them, but they’re likely shared among all tenants, mostly decorative, and maybe even off-limits in terms of actual use (some buildings do that.. yikes). Plus, they’re super open to the street, which means they’re not really safe or private enough for Jack to play in.
So I don’t think the green spaces themselves were the selling point.
I think he stayed because of the overall architectural quality of the building. It's a historic structure (from mid 1920s-1930s??) that’s been carefully restored, updated with 21st-century systems and amenities, and built with high-quality materials and finishes. Maybe there’s a park nearby where Jack can actually play safely. Maybe it’s closer to his school. It also doesn’t strike me as a suburban area, which could be another plus - city life offers access to public transportation, shops, cultural spaces, sports activities… all of which might've played into the decision.
I am so so so so here for this headcanon and I fuck so much with the background check idea because yes, he absolutely asked Garcia for help and no, he doesn’t think that was an overstep. It was a precaution. For Jack.
Also, I’m convinced he’s very active in the tenant community.
He’s the one who created the condo group chat - no one asked him to, but it’s impeccably organized, with pinned messages and!!! a color-coded spreadsheet of recycling days (I'm European, this is wired into my DNA, sorry) he made himself at 3 a.m. on Excel. He barely answers texts from his team, but the second someone reports “unusual noises near the trash chute,” he’s replying in 0.3 seconds with “What time? Which floor?”
Sure, he’s fussy about noise (especially when he’s actually home) but he’s also the one everyone turns to when the building manager starts power-tripping or the garbage hasn't been collected. You’ve got a broken washing machine? Hotch already emailed the landlord and the building’s legal obligation clause. Trash not yeeted? He’ll yeet it himself. The man has a complex Google Drive dedicated to tenant rights #prosecutor!Hotch
I will die on the hill he is a chatty grandma. Sure, he’s serious, but he knows everyone’s business, and somehow people trust him with their extra keys and gossip. He's fbi, he's cunty, he has great hair... hello???
(Like, you knock on his door and say, “Sorry to bother-” and he’s already saying, “Your cat escaped again? He's in apartment 127, do you need anything else?”)
Another reason I think he stayed in that apartment is because, most likely between s3 and 4, he started spending some time there with Jack. I’m not sure how the co-parenting with Haley worked logistically, but I can easily imagine him having Jack over on weekends when he wasn’t working, or at least trying to carve out that time. And that apartment became part of Jack’s routine, part of what "home" felt like to him, Hotch probably couldn’t bring himself to move.
I don’t think Hotch stayed there for himself. Psychologically of course, it’s not the healthiest choice (he was literally stabbed there by Foyet) but it is the best choice for his son. And unless you’re talking about his job, Jack always comes first.
And Hotch… Hotch always comes last.
I think he bottled everything up. I don’t even think he fully let himself consider that the apartment might be an unhealthy place to stay in. If the thought of moving did ever cross his mind, I’m almost certain it wasn’t about him. It wasn’t “I don’t feel safe here,” it was: What if someone breaks in again? What if Jack’s here? What if it happens when I’m not home?
He stayed because Jack knew that place. Because changing homes again would be another loss. Another shift. Another instability. And Hotch would rather carry the weight of that trauma alone than risk making his son feel displaced.
Sooooo... yep. That's it. I guess.
Thank you so so so so much for the ask!!! I'm so so so curious to know what are YOUR! thoughts!!
btw it's crazy how you pretend you're a cm fan but won't write for spencer??
Oh anon, you're sooo right... I should tooootally delete my whole account rn. Why am I even here, wasting my creative juices on that dried up prune of a constipated unit chief...
Don’t post about hitch being pegged unless ur gonna write it PLEASE 😈
This is the energy my blog's running on from now on. Mark my words!!! I will write it. Once I'm done with the cheating fic pt.2, pegging Hotch is next. No one can stop me.