Hi smurph! I hope you are well, just wanted to come into your in box and send a lil love! Thank you for all that you have contributed to the famdom and i hope someday to see you on my dash again ❤️
Hi! 👋 this is so kind and the fact that people still think about me and my work is why I’m still writing.
I spent a lot of 2024 going through some changes in my life, getting pregnant and having a high risk pregnancy that took me for a spin lol, and quitting my toxic corporate job to freelance! I also got married 😅 I gave birth six weeks ago with only a small plan to go back to freelance work, so I’ve been writing in my free time while my son naps!
I’m so sorry I’ve been gone and I know I’ve made many attempts to come back, but I’m planning to stay back this time. It’s just been the CRAZIEST year lol.
Plus with this new administration who isn’t stressed tf out? Writing has been my escape once more.
21. Is there an idea you’ve always wanted to write, but haven’t yet? 30. Do you write down all your ideas? What makes you decide to write one versus the other? 36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you’re proudest of?
(SOooooo late, soooo sorry I've only recently started being active here rip)
21. I've always wanted to write a thriller/mystery. I'm working on one right now but it's pretty dark and it's an original story so it's slow going.
30. I do! I write them down on my docs or in a notebook. What usually tends to make me write an actual story is picturing some action scene. Like for Operation: Sand Leopard, I clearly saw the scene where Spencer experiences his first bomb outside the wire, and the rest of the story was built around that.
36. The fanfic that has the best symbolism imo is probably Over Your Shoulder. I feel like I've done such in depth work with that fic and growing the characters that it showcases my growth the best! I did a lot of parallels between Jasper's Team and the BAU, as well as between Jasper and Spencer
I know I keep saying this but I really am trying super hard to get you new chapters. I have been working the last year to finish works so that when I begin posting again you will have an end game in sight :) It's been a truly rough and crazy 2023 and 2022... and 2024. I am struggling and thriving and doing my absolute best. I love you guys and thank you for sticking with me as long as you have <3 I really appreciate it and I feel the love every day. Please don't think i'm not seeing the comments on posts and the different sites. I see all of them and love them dearly. You're amazing and thank you so much :)
How about making out with him in his apartment and as his hands are moving over your body and you're kissing, he keeps speaking against your lips because he cant help it and its the cutest thing
Okay, I have two scenarios for this:
Shy baby Spencer
Grinding down on his lap, you whimpered against Spencer's lips. Each slide of his against yours pooled heat deep in your gut, his little groans only spurring you on.
"Sweetheart," he murmured, but you just kiss him again. His hands were very politely set on your waist but going no further, though you can feel his restricted boner trapped between layers of both your clothes. "Are you-." Another kiss. "-okay? You're okay?"
"'m peachy, baby," you mutter back impatiently, tangling your fingers in that soft mussed hair and pulling his chest to press against yours.
He let out a little grunt at the pet name, his hips jumping up and his hard length letting you know just how much he wanted you even though his nerves were getting the best of him.
"You," another kiss, harder this time, "the sounds," you stuck your tongue down his throat and moaned just to make your point.
Pulling away just for a moment to look at him, the pink of his cheeks bright and sweat lining his brow.
"Spencer," you said seriously, and he bit his lip anxiously. "Shut up and let me kiss you."
"Okay, but-," he started, but you gripped his collar and kissed him fiercely before shoving him down on the couch cushions.
He'd had you on his lap for what felt like hours. In just your panties and a tshirt, Spencer ground himself up into your anxiously waiting sex, groaning and making you bounce on him just for fun. He was relentless and insistent, holding you tightly by the nape of your neck and tugging and pushing and pulling whenever he felt like it.
"Look at you," he growled quietly, dangerously, between kisses. "Just a few kisses and you're a mess."
A few kisses?? You couldn't help but furrow your brow and glare at him as he bit your bottom lip so you couldn't reply. Tugging it between his teeth and rolling it, Spencer's tongue darted out to soothe a bit before tugging you back for another heady kiss.
His lips dragged across yours, so intent and focused on watching you fall apart that he would slightly miss the mark.
"If I suck on your tongue are you gonna cum right here?" he asked deliciously dark, bouncing you once more and smirking against you as you yelped. "Are you so needy that you'll fall apart without being touched?"
All you could do was whine as he forced his tongue through your lips, snaking past your teeth to slide against your own. You whimpered pathetically as he did just as he said he would, sucking on your tongue and making a unbelievably embarrassing moan erupt from your chest. You ground down on him desperately, and even though it was close, it didn't do what he wanted.
"Mmm," he growled, then smacked your backside and kissed you again. "Let's see how far I can push you until you cum on my lap."
Like... friend... I am WRECKED thinking about these both.
What are some of your NSFW Spencer Reid headcanons? Tell me here!
and i read one yesterday about reid from every season on valentine's day, and i wanted to know if i could have one with every season of reid and reader on her birthday?
they can be sweet, romantic and smutty, i love the smutty LOL
thank you so much
again i am a big fan 💗💗
Ohh I'm so happy! I love writing Room 405, so thank you for letting me know you like it <3
I also read that one! @radiant-reid has the BEST hc's for Spencer! :)
I loved this, <3 Please send me more <3 They don't have to be all the seasons, I'll do smaller blurbs but this was too fun
Season 1:
I'd like to think for season one, Spencer wouldn't have the guts to ask you out yet, sooo
he probably would notice that you got kinda nervous about your birthday
and you haven't told the team either
so he sneaks a little dessert from your favorite bakery on your desk with a hand written note
it says, Y/N, I didn't know if you wanted anyone to know, but happy birthday. I hope it's as sweet and wonderful as you
You spend the rest of the day with heat in your cheeks and your lip tucked between your teeth
Enjoying it with your coffee, you notice Spencer watching you with the goofiest grin ever
so you go over and sit on the edge of his desk and give him half of it as a thank you
and you two share the dumbest little smiles all day
later that night you go over to his place to say thank you in person
and because it's your birthday and his present gave you the courage to tell the team the girls took you out for a drink... or three
so you had some liquid courage as well
and you kiss him before you can stop yourself
you still taste like the treat and those damned fruity cocktails Elle and JJ convinced you to drink
So he stops it at the kiss, but he drives you home and gives you another before he piles you into bed
he asks you out the next day, plying you with yet another treat
you definitely say yes, even though your head is pounding and you're hiding behind a pair of sunglasses
he loves the taste of that sweet on your tongue
Season 2
this year, Spencer's ready to go ALL OUT
he won't tell you what he has planned
he loves his secrets
when you step out of your room in your outfit, his jaw literally drops so quickly you burst out laughing
his face turns beet red but he stomps on over to you to pull you in for a deep kiss
you almost convince him to go back in the bedroom with you
but he's smarter than you and knows your tricks by now
he takes you to the botanical gardens, and it's closed except for the two of you bc you know he has connections
DC in the spring has these amazing cherry blossoms and it's nice and cool, but still warm enough for just a light jacket
He knows the name of every flower and plant, and he holds your hand tightly as he rambles on and on about them.
When you get to the section with your favorite flowers, theres a picnic blanket with a pretty little basket waiting
and you two share a bottle of wine as the flora shines under the twinkly lights
and he's too damned pretty and too damned sweet
and before you can pull him down to kiss you he gives you your dessert
you share it, giggling quietly together among the plants and the walkways
eventually you drag him down to you on the blanket by his tie, and you make sure he can taste every bit of that sweet
you barely get out of your clothes in your hurry (thank god for short dresses and crotchless panties, your present to him)
Season 3
This year was hard
after Spencer's torture and Gideon's leaving, he's really distracted and forgets
but you're not angry, and instead you planned for it.
a night in watching movies on the couch and cuddling under the blankets was more than enough for you
you barely had any time together that week because of the cases you two had
so taking a breather and ordering from the crappy chinese place down the street was exactly what you needed
he eases up after a while, laughing with you at the movie and munching on noodles in the soft light
as happened many times that year, you ended up with his head on your chest and him koala-ing you on the couch
you both fall asleep with the tv blaring
and when you wake up he's gone
you're just about to call him when the door opens behind you, and in comes spencer with that familiar box,
but instead of one he's got two and a bouquet of flowers
star gazer lillies and white roses to say sorry
he begs you to forgive him but you tell him theres nothing to forgive, you had a great birthday just being with him
he still feels awful, but you start the coffee pot and pour you both a cup
and you spend the morning in your sweats, enjoying your pastries and coffee and chatting about your plans for the year ahead.
maybe you'll get away sometime, maybe you'll get a new apartment
youre happy, and hes there, and thats all that matters
Season 4
Spencer was overjoyed to become a godfather that year
so you spent most of your free time at JJ's so he could bond with Henry
and you fell in love with the little guy too
but with the anthrax case and the reaper and riley jenkins and all the cases in between, its hard to root for the idea of a family some day. so much can go wrong
but you and Spencer love eachother
so you spend your birthday moving into an apartment together, passing one another on the stairwells and sharing quick kisses as you haul boxes up to the new place
at the end of the day you sit in your new living room, surrounded by boxes and boxes of both your things - mostly books, and you're exhausted
but spencer hasn't forgotten your birthday
he told you happy birthday about nine hundred times that day
and even though youre dead tired, he convinces you to unpack just this one box, it's the last one baby i swear
you sigh but you oblige, grinning like a maniac when you open it
its a little puppy bed with a collar
and the tag has an empty space for a name and your new address
"Three years later and I just want to live my life with you," he tells you as you watch him in shock. "You're my family, and I think we should add a member."
you go the next day to the shelter, but instead of finding a puppy, you find a big blue haired 90lb pitbull
shes the sweetest dog you ever met, though a little skittish, but to your surprise she and Spencer bond immediately
he isn't a fan of dogs, so that was why he wanted a puppy, but he and Delilah are bonded at the hip from the moment they meet
she sleeps under the covers on his side, so he's sandwiched between you two
he calls you his girls and you've never been happier
Season 5
Spencer wakes you up with a bunch of kisses all over your face
Delilah also joins in
Wake up sleepy head! It's my favorite day of the year!
You need a shower after, but you grumble and curse as you sit up
You stop on your way to the bathroom, side-eyeing the suitcases at the foot of the bed
He tells you hes whisking his girls away for Mommy's birthday
He always calls you Mommy when he's talking to Delilah, and he just preens when you call him Daddy to her
You shower, grumpily plopping in the front seat with an iced coffee and your sunglasses plastered on your face
its very early
he just gets too excited on your birthday, since it's also your anniversary
he doesn't forget your pastry, and you split it with him and Delilah as he drives you to locations unknown
you wind up at a cottage on the sea later that day
its beautiful, and it brings tears to your eyes as you walk up the wrap around porch and finally notice the SOLD sign on the walkway
"We're not squatting, are we Stick?"
he laughs and shakes his head
"I bought it a few months ago. Escrow closed last week. It's... for us, for when we need to get away"
You burst into tears in the drive way, and Spencer barely gets you inside since he's still using his cane
Delilah eventually licks you so much it makes you laugh, and you head inside to see what he had planned
it's beautiful, all the soft furniture and dimmed lights. Its romantic, all the wicker and light wood and gentle colors
Spencer makes you dinner, which is surprising because he's a terrible cook
later you find the takeout boxes in the trash, but you never say anything
He shows you around the house, and your bedroom has a gorgeous bathroom with a deep clawfoot tub
there's two spare bedrooms, but you two dont talk about why you might need those
After dinner you head to the beach, and Spencer leans heavily on you as you maneuver your way through the sand, Delilah trotting happily beside you
You watch the waves with a grateful smile, your chest bursting with pride and love as you stand with your little family on this little beach, your little heart full and safe
Spencer tells you he needs to tie his shoe, so you help him get down on one knee
but his shoe isn't untied
he pulls a little black velvet box from his pocket, Delilah sitting dutifully by his side
and he asks you to marry him while you cover your face with your hands and cry
when he slips the ring on your finger, you burst into tears again,
he's trying to get up to comfort you but that damned knee
and you fling yourself into his arms, tackling him into the sand and kissing him fiercely
Delilah joins in
and now your birthday is your favorite day of the year too
Season 6
It's been a long year of planning
Turns out Spencer has quite the eye for wedding planning
and he loves symbolism and all those little things you aren't so good at noticing
but thats why you have him, he's the little details guy, youre the big picture person
theres lilies and roses everywhere, soft colors and twinkling lights encasing the little seaside cottage he bought a year ago
you sit in your big bathroom, JJ and Emily and Garcia flitting around you
you get really overwhelmed, the weight of the day stressing you out
you start to panic, your face getting hot as you sit in your dress, and Spencer hears you from the spare bedroom where hes getting ready
the girls try to shoo him from the room, since its bad luck to see the bride on her wedding day
but he shoves his way inside anyways, stopping in his tracks as he lays eyes on you
your hair is already done, your makeup immaculate and radiant and ready to be the prettiest bride in the world
but your cheeks are red and your eyes are watery, being touched by so many people and ushered here and there... it was a lot
So spencer shoos the girls out and locks the bathroom door behind him, going to his knees in front of you and rubbing the backs of your hands
"If you're having cold feet..." he starts, and his voice is so small you almost burst into tears
and you tell him its not that, you want to marry him, even right there in the bathroom with you both dressed to the nines and looking like dolls
youre just not used to being the center of attention all the time,
and he smiles at you, kisses you gently on the lips
"After today, you'll only be my center of attention. We get down that aisle, and it's all over, baby. All we have to do after is dance and eat"
but you're still anxious, so you kiss him again, and the next thing you know hes lifting you up onto the sink
and the two of you rock together as he makes love to you right there, whispering sweet words and dirty things in your ear
and when you finish, all your stress is gone
and you walk down the aisle in the living room with his cum dripping down your thigh
you exchange your vows and kiss, squeezing your legs together and trying to ignore the fact that your friends and family are watching
you head back down the aisle as everyone cheers and heads outside, the two of you going back to the bathroom to decompress before the reception
and find yourself doing it again on the sink, but this time every dirty whisper and sweet declaration is followed by my wife, MY wife, my beautiful wife
Everyone clears out and you spend your honeymoon there, giggling like children each time you call him my husband, and he calls you my wife.
Season 7
You lost Emily right after your wedding, and got her back less than a year later
Spencer struggled a lot during the year, keeping mostly to himself and worrying you all year long
you were overjoyed when Emily came back, doing your best to understand her situation, but Spencer didn't see it that way
He was pissed, and it put a strain on the two of you all year
His obvious struggle and anger was a lot to deal with, especially in your tiny apartment
He moved out a few weeks before your birthday
at your request
it was just too much to deal with.
coming up on a year married and he couldn't seem to forgive or forget, and it felt sometimes like he took it out on you
So you and Delilah stayed in bed for your birthday
you cried a few times, holding her blue pelt close and relishing in her warmth
You fell asleep with your arms wrapped around her
and when you awoke, one side of the bed was dipping down, a hand on your hip
and when you turned Spencer was sitting next to you, holding a bouquet of star gazer lilies and white roses and a familiar box with a red bow
You smiled, because you couldn't help it, you loved him so much and he was there for you, on what was supposed to be both of your favorite day
and he burst into tears, sobbing apologies and swearing to do right by you
he started seeing a therapist the next day
and slowly things got better
Spencer moved in again
and you started looking for a house
Season 8
You had been moving into the house all week
carrying boxes and bedframes and bookshelves, oh god
so many bookshelves
It was a sweet brownstone in a great neighborhood
surrounded by young couples with kids and dogs
Delilah had a great time following the two of you up and down the stairs
tail wagging and barking at empty spaces
you almost managed to convince spencer it was haunted
he trusted you so much
but he knew you well enough to know when you were joking
Your birthday was a big deal in your relationship
According to Spencer it was, "The day I got my two best girls," since it was not only the day you were born, but the day you got married, started dating, adopted your first baby
Things were going great, especially after the pain of last year.
You sat on the kitchen counter at the end of the day, stirring a pot of macaroni and tossing Delilah stray dry noodles
when Spencer gives you yet another box to open
"Are we getting another dog?" you ask suspiciously
He shakes his head, biting down on his lip to keep from grinning
You open the box, dropping it when you saw what was inside
Spencer caught it easily, reaching inside and handing the contents to you
It was a little purple onesie,
Baby Reid emblazoned on the front
"You said you were ready to try..." Spencer grins at you, and you watch him with wide eyes. "I'm ready too."
The macaroni goes cold on the stovetop, the burners hastily turned off as you tried on the new kitchen counter
Then you tried three more times, once in the shower, twice in bed
Then again in the morning
Season 9
You spent all year trying
You weren't trying particularly hard
but the lack of results was getting to you
spencer tried to keep your spirits up, but you knew it was worrying him too
he started talking about adoption
and you were open to it, but just not yet
You'd been shot in the line of duty a few months back, so you were out of the field and spent most of your time at home or watching Henry for JJ and Will
You were enjoying the time with Henry, but it left your womb feeling achy and empty as of late
You hadn't been feeling great, dizzy and tired and bloaty
So Spencer had taken some time off to spend with you
Despite how crappy you'd been feeling you were horny all the time
and having him home was great because you could pull him into the bedroom any time you wanted
For your birthday and anniversary, he planned a night in since you hadn't been feeling well
JJ bought you a pregnancy test for your birthday
You were terrified to take it
All the other times it had been negative, but she insisted she was feeling the same way before she had Henry
so you were willing to try
Spencer bought you dinner and flowers, and after you ate you snuggled on the couch with him and Delilah
but then you felt sick
the little stick weighed heavily in your mind
you excused yourself as politely as you could and headed up to the bathroom
Your nerves almost got the better of you, but eventually you took it out of the package and did your business
The three minutes waiting for it were a LIFETIME
Spencer knocked on the door just before your timer went off, asking if you were okay
You opened the door with the little stick clamped tightly in your hands
and Spencer exchanged a worried glance with you
but he was your rock, and he covered your hands with his and kissed you sweetly
You and Delilah are the only family I need, Y/N
and you believed him
You both looked down at the pregnancy test, then looked back up at each other to take a deep breath in unison
When you turned it over you almost fainted, but Spencer caught you in a crushing hug
It was positive
Season 10
Little Diana was born about eight months later
You called her Lady Di, much to Spencer's mother's delight
Spencer spent your entire pregnancy being fiercely protective and hovering
Until your eighth month, you swore your feet never touched the ground, and even then he hardly let you get up
He'd carry you on his hip and set you on counters, rarely letting you move around on your own
You just got too heavy to carry, so he started working out with Derek
Delilah slept at the end of your bed each night, keeping watch
When you water broke, he swept you up and carried you to the car, hardly remembering the hospital go bag
He cried with every contraction
hating to see you in pain, face flushed and cursing up a storm
He held your hand and sniffled in between them, whispering sweet words of encouragement and reverence
you yelled at him and cursed him for doing this to you in the first place
He just nodded and agreed with you, even though you broke one of his fingers you squeezed him so hard
After fifteen hours of labor, Lady Di was there, in you arms
Spencer burst into tears the second he saw her, watching the nurses clean her off and following like a baby duckling as they handed her to you
your heart had never been so full
She was so small, and when her little fist wrapped around Spencer's pinky, he broke down and sobbed in your neck
He cried again when she let go
He cried a lot those first few days, overwhelmed and so so so happy he could barely function
You'd catch him up at night, cuddling her to his bare chest and reading to her in the dim light of the nursery, Delilah sleeping under the crib
She loved to give Di kisses, waiting patiently on the couch for you to tell her it was okay
Spencer stayed home with you the entirety of your maternity leave, and he had a harder time than you did returning to work.
He called the babysitter three times a day, and in return she texted you every hour with updates just so he would stop
your first birthday/anniversary after having the baby, you were determined to go out
JJ watched baby Di for you guys, and Spencer's chin wobbled as he stood in the doorway, holding her protectively in his arms as he tried to let her go
you were supposed to stay the night at a hotel, to try and get away for a little bit
But halfway through dinner you burst into surprised tears of your own, and you and Spencer rushed back to the LaMontaigne's to reclaim your baby girl
JJ and Will shooed you out of the house, telling you they just got her to sleep, and you needed the night off
So you and Spencer went to the hotel
you didn't make it out of the car
Who knew how it started, but it ended with the two of you tangled in the back of the minivan, gasping and giggling like teenagers as you laid just out of view of the baby carrier
When you got her back, you and Spencer stood over the crib and held one another, hardly able to believe you'd spent as many hours away as you did
You slunk off to bed a few hours later, and when you woke up she was still asleep
So you had some mommy/daddy time in the shower, listening closely for the baby monitor
You made it two and a half times before she started crying
Season 11
A year and four months old, and Diana was wearing you two out
She learned how to walk, and immediately started running
It stressed Spencer out, as she would be in one place one second and bolting the next, leaving him to chase the little giggle monster down
So he carried her everywhere you went
He'd already taught her Russian, which you did NOT have the capacity to learn, so they had their own little language without you
it was rude
They would sit on the couch and giggle, speaking softly while you hung out with Delilah
Diana was such a daddy's girl
She spent every second on Spencer's lap that she could
Sometimes you felt a little jealous, but then there were the other times
How she would reach out for you first thing in the morning, how her first word was mommy, and when she was scared she reached for you
But everything else she did with Spencer, and he lived for her attention
This year you were determined to go out, and stay out
So you made the hotel reservation again and dropped Di at JJ's
The two of you rushed out of there as quick as you could
You made it to the end of the street before Spencer pulled you into the back of the minivan
By the time you got to the hotel you were both disheveled
and the hotel clerk gave you a cheeky smile that made both of you turn red
The hotel room was immediately used and abused
god forbid they take a blacklight to the sheets,
yikes
Spencer ran you a bubble bath after and carried you in on his hip, clutching you close to his chest the whole time
He washed your hair with the luxurious shampoos and conditioner from the high end hotel, and then he washed you in reverence,
he paid extra special soft-touch attention to your stretch marks from your daughter
he loved those
like an inordinate amount
He told you, "Ten years later and this is still my favorite day"
And it's still mine, Spencer
You two slept in the next day, taking your time to get back to Will and JJ's
Ten years together and you had so much more to go
Okay, sorry I spent like 4 hours on this haha
I honestly haven't watched past the end of Season 12 because I heard about some of the Cat story lines and I just... haven't wanted to watch that. Maybe this time I'll watch the entirety of CM. I'm on Season 5 rn during this rewatch, which I always make it to like season 10 and go back to the beginning bc I like when theyre happy and just babies...
i started reading your spencer reid fic “operation: sand leopard” a couple of months ago and i just thought of how i haven’t seen an update in a while and i was just wondering if you are ever going to add the next parts? i really love your writing and your other fics and i really want to see the end of this one!! if this is weird i’m so sorry but i mean well and am not at all trying to rush you in any way!!
i wish you all the best these holidays! <3
Hi friend!
Honestly I’m not doing the best. We put in an offer on this really great house and due to issues with the seller, we lost it. It’s the second house since August we’ve lost bc we couldn’t negotiate or work with the seller and it’s honestly been devastating.
I haven’t been writing much because the last handful of months have been very difficult and busy between life and work, but I’m trying to write a little every day 💕 I’m so happy you like my work and it definitely made me smile to see that today 😊
None of my fics are abandoned, and I will be continuing them! Especially Operation: Sand Leopard! I love that fic so much 💕❤️
i completely get you. i’ve been in the reverse of what you’re going through lately, myself, so i understand! i hope things stay positive, and don’t let that piece drain you. 😘 if i can be candid, i wasn’t even that into it until i realized that you went with luke when i was expecting morgan, and then you went into reid’s pov and i was completely invested so like. now i’m just mad because i’m mad 😂 cause i wasn’t supposed to be mad, but it’s SO GOOD, smurph. i literally never reach out to people but as soon as i was done i was like “i gotta let them know i’m hooked.” so i’m gonna go down the rabbit hole of the other stuff you’ve written, don’t mind me. love your work, keep doing you. just know i’m cheering you AND your good vibes on from the sidelines. much love!!
Oh I appreciate that! It was only supposed to be a one shot and I think that's also some of the trouble i have continuing it. I had to go with Spencer's pov to explain his craziness and why he thought it was rational😅😅 otherwise he was so out of character nutso! As much as i love Morgan, I was just never really attracted to him enough to write smut with him. Luke on the other hand??? You have @andiebeaword and @fortheloveofwonderland to blame for my attraction and love of him. They're enablers 😂
I didn't have the whole thing planned from the get like I did with my other stories. I hope you enjoy my other works! I look forward to hearing your thoughts💕💕
