#asks for (m)e

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I am psychically telepathing disrespectfully in your direction. Carnaly.

thank you! finally, some direct action 💕

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1, 10, 17!

1. what’s your aesthetic?

I guess my casual looks are kind of grunge? I very rarely have a consistent aesthetic; I’ve tried every style I could think of. I’ll wear basically anything, but picture lots of chunky boots, small tops and wide-legged pants.

10. one secret about yourself?

The first girl that I ever had a crush on was my best friend’s older sister. I was 10 and she was 14. She was a musician, and she was the only reason why I picked up my first instrument: the violin. I’ve never owned up to it, even though we’re still close. Sorry, Abby — your boyfriend is great <3

17. your favourite book(s)?

The Beauty of The Husband by Anne Carson, The Inexplicable Logic of My Life by Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Fun Home by Alison Bechdel and The Silence of the Girls by Pat Barker. I could talk for hours about these books, but I’ll spare you the sales pitch.

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I like to bake, but perhaps not everyone.

I actually love baking! I have a huge habit of stress-baking loaves of bread

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omg happy birthday Evelyn!!!! have the greatest day🖤🖤🖤

Ahhh! Thank you!! You’re too kind to me, Aleks <3

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ooh it's your birthday? happy birthday <3

thank you, love! birthdays aren’t normally my favourite thing ever, but I’m feeling pretty good about this one xoxo

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what are your top ten futct lyrics and why

Let’s gooooo! I’ll give you a teaser, and the rest goes under the cut <3

1. “I'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake / The hand behind this pen relives a failure everyday”

It’s such a quintessential Wentz line, and the vibe is so specific to the album, as well. It’s a little homoerotic, it’s a little self-loathing, it’s a little bit angsty. It’s got everything. What more do you want?

2. “Take our tears, put 'em on ice / ‘Cause I swear, I'd burn this city down to show you the light”

This has always been one of my favourite lyrics. Growing up, I was a small town kid. If you either are — or were previously — a small town kid, you know exactly what I mean when I say that they’re the sort of places that you either leave as a teenager, or you stay there forever. There’s just no in-between. I always knew that I was leaving. So, I’ve always loved this lyric because I was a country kid with an incredibly close group of friends. And I knew that one day I was going to leave, and they weren’t going to come with me. It was kind of an inevitable, bittersweet little tragedy, so we weren’t gonna cry about it (“take our tears, put 'em on ice”). But I would have done anything for those assholes. It was good.

3. “The best part of, ‘Believe’ is the lie / I hope you sing along, and you steal a line”

Again, I’ve always loved this wordplay. And I’m a skeptical bastard, so I like the sentiment, too. “I hope you sing along, and you steal a line” is such a good lyric in a song that’s mainly about hope and cynicism and growing up just to realise you might be a little fucked. Because it’s so ‘I hope you take this, I hope it stays with you and you keep it forever — for better or worse’. And the fact that it’s followed with “I need to keep you like this in my mind”, because it’s a give and take: it’s very ‘you hold on to these words, and I’ll hold onto the way you look tonight’. That’s pretty neat.

4. “They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone / But for what we've become, we just feel more alone”

This is for all my intimidating homies out there! It’s just such a fun lyric. There is something isolating about the kind of person that you become in order to protect yourself from the world. As someone who has, indeed, been addressed as a ‘vicious bitch’ I get to own this one.

5. “And the poets are just kids who didn’t make it / And never had ‘it’ at all”

Every time that Pete calls himself a poet, my heart gets all gooey. I’ve been involved in the arts industry, both directly and indirectly, for a long time — and there really is this mentality that some people will just never be worthwhile creative investments because they don’t have ‘it’. It’s always a bummer to watch talented kids run themselves into the ground trying to impress people who aren’t invested in them. Also, I’m a writer and a sad bitch; so me too, Pete.

6. “I’m sleeping on your folk’s porch again, dreaming”

This is just such a warm, summer lyric for me. I’ve been that kid, passed out on a friend’s verandah/balcony, lying on the planks and sharing a shitty blanket with someone. This line specifically reminds me of being 16 and sharing a pillow with the girl I had a crush on, outside, at her parent’s place.

7. “It’s true romance is dead / I shot it in the chest then in the head”

It’s badass. It’s a game-changer. It lives in my head rent-free. Should have made it to the album. It fucks.

8. “I’m mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town”

This is just beautifully tragic imagery. It’s futile, and it’s empty. It’s twisted nostalgia and compulsive sentimentality. It’s about not being able to let things go. And you know me, folks; I’m always a slut for a ghost motif.

9. “Your secret’s out and the best part is / It isn’t even a good one”

Something about Patrick’s delivery in combination with this line? It’s just show-stopping, baby. For me, this has always felt like a particularly brutal line; something about guarding yourself against people’s judgement, and then finding out that no one even cares enough about you to throw the first stone. It’s a very ‘Pete’ fear — like, sure, they might hate me but at least they’re looking. And as long as you’re seen, you exist.

10. “To the ‘love’, I left my conscience pressed / Through the keyholes I watched you dress / Kiss and tell / Loose lips sink ships”

I love how this line flows and I love the difference between this bridge and the original chorus lyrics (“between the pages of the bible in the drawer”, etc.). Again, this song has always felt kind of ambiguously queer to me. The lines about leaving your ‘conscience’ behind, between the pages of a motel bible, reads very true to the experience of your first gay hookup. Very ‘fuck what the church has said, it’s never done a thing for me anyway’. So the difference between that and this final change — suggesting that, despite everything, the meeting still has to be kept a secret — is super compelling to me.

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you know i love attention💌

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and I am more than happy to provide x

you already know this, but your mind is incredible. I honestly think your blog is one of the reasons that I even started interacting in bandom. I saw a post one day and went 'oh I have got to be friends with this chick' <3

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hii evelyn bestie ¿💌?

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hi bestie!! <3

I love how passionate and dedicated you are to the things that you care about. you truly care about the health and wellbeing of animals, and you have the kind of knowledge and compassion that I really admire.

also lmaoo you make the best memes thanks for being my favourite penguin in the polycule. mwah! xx