that’s the spirit
I really want to make a difference to my life. I want to live in a different way. At the moment, something just seems really off. Maybe it’s just the spirit of exams but I really feel like I’m losing myself a little bit. Logically, my life couldn’t be better; I’m doing well academically, I’ve got a job, I’m in a happy relationship, I play football regularly and my family is pretty alright. With all those aspects there some cons and exceptions to some of them.
I’m doing well academically – however I got 55% on my physics exam because I procrastinated my studying. I’ve got a job – however I really need this Friday off but I can’t find anyone to cover. I’m in a happy relationship – however I don’t get to see her as much as I would like to. I play football regularly – however I still feel like I don’t fit in with my team and I don’t know how to deal with that. My family is pretty alright – however my older brother ignores my existence and my mum doesn’t take me seriously.
I know that I have life better than a lot of people but I feel like I’ve lost the motivation to try to exceed at anything. I have no self-control when it comes to procrastination and I’ve been doing everything I can to avoid training. Right now, I should be studying for Specialist Math, but here I am, writing up my feelings. I just don’t have the energy; I really don’t.