My days are still full of fighting numbness. I attempted to actually get out and do things. I always enjoy cheering on the @southalabamasoc team. My extroverted self should have lit up while at the @ruf_at_usa cookout. I should enjoyed and not count down the minutes of free moments that I was able to hammock. That's not what happened. My ENFP self needed deep interactions. Numbness made it hard for me push myself to bike the steep/harder parts of the routes which made me question if I really wanted to do things I used to enjoy but have missed out recently. I even had a few times where I could have ruined my tires and possibly even injured myself by falling. I even had fight thoughts of self harm when I got home and found my pocket knife while semi attempting to unpack. I'm posting this as an accountability thing of that I will go start the process of getting back into counseling. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #EndStigma #BreakTheSilence #accountability #attemptingtostaystrong