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Doing some old school flows on some old school issues.

How heavy is your chain? If your cross still have weight, Your mountain a high climb Or your heart too wide for narrow gates... I’m wearing that unbalanced design Trying to tip the scales before it’s too late. I do me justice when I drop judgment And just claim, “Love, we are the same"

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Zealot - Audder [Written 02.24.15]

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Eternal Sunshine (Jhene Aiko Remix) - Audder

"... your winged speech Too short to tell Too clipped with views from the six Days familiar with hell Six months done you over, done you well

If the sun only shines in summer, Go ahead, stay sleepin’ on yourself” (Lyrics con’t below)

I think you lost something, girl I think you are something Shells put to ears for the pearls You speaking like oceans will part And pathways uncurl But your world is too small Not to fall in the wake of that call It’s certain disaster Calculate the after Of the plus ones whose differences Turned negative Subtracter subdued to the powers That won’t be themselves For, who knows the hour? Presume an angel but your winged speech Too short to tell Too clipped with views from the six Days familiar with hell Six months done you over, done you well If the sun only shines in summer Go ahead, stay sleepin on yourself.

Forget about it.

Cause this is for them, or this is for some thesis To support or amend This is an amenity for sermonizing till we all say amen To urbanity in your vanities, street cred by the side of your bed Yeah, tell me what good that dream grafted and led What tree of knowledge bore your laboured fruit To prove yourself, then proved you were off branch from death proof You couldn’t make a living. You spilled your guts just to cut your heart from dirty roots Now the Gardener is pruning out the ruins You can show your backyard exactly what He’s doing If you can’t build them homes, take them to your hood Being a friendly neighbour ain’t about being greater In responsibility, doesn’t mean you always should Your only power is in saying the Great One will and He could The way He’s done it for you, as you understood Don’t underestimate the blessing of a spotless mind To recall His goodness in your own running time. Watch. You won’t forget about it.

- Audder

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Acid Rain

God, I miss the rain Pour one out for my common sense is dead And tryin’ to resurrect my pain I killed another moment in mankind’s common grave I’m Sheol and she’s holding hell To fill the crave of a hole in her brain Holy hell, what’s she sayin is rock bottom low Then we take it higher, take it higher, oh no Take it higher with saving grace I should know What I’m saving up for is a place Down Electric Avenue

Where I grew Had me growing weary of people claiming that They know me just because they near me If they brand me as a burnout, that would finna sear me But even as I walk through fire, I still finna fear me Dying out, so living on wired fences to keep the dying in. A bloody power struggle to refine a young diamond But find nobody's pumped and fully shining We're scared They're gonna see a wasteland, the barely surviving, The skeletons, the criminals we beat up and lock up And put no time in

It’s too late. The purity, the innocence is decaying Life’s another playground I’m too scared to play in I’m with the kids afraid of their own shadow We play no Peter Pan games And ask what name is hallowed In the shallows Tryin' to protect our own skin Put on sunblock with the aloe To resist what’s itchin Never singin' that sunny day Feelin burned by my base Of street smarts and elements As a basic ground Now animals puppet my face To face the acid meltdown Had me trippin on who I am Tryin to fight my chemical make up Like I was born into a coma and death is when I finally wake up

How many times have I fed my soul to what I believe could eat me alive? To see them multiply my life By the pieces of me they divide I always feels like I’m waiting for someone else to decide If that’s God, tell Him it’s been real But I can’t tell if I’m on reality’s side Leave it up to your imaginative Leave it up to your troubled mind Find the maker, Give em hell Find out what touch is divine Self-definitive, self-diminutive Faith and doubt don't touch the selfish and thinning gray lines So I think I finna did get stoned out, Ain't seen the last time I wept In an instant, The bipolar captures me like polaroids that I kept Posing for popularity Your composition set With white framed clarity What competition is left? Privileged say: You doin' right, you fight the good fight I bet Far cry of a lone wolf with a hard time to not get upset So why you actin' like a floater on that selfie neglect? Floatin through night on a red eye, the kid haven't slept Correct my negative image cause you think I'm soul-less Lack of visibility, so lookin socially inept Who accepts?

Except, my head is foggin' with emotional depth, Just not taking it in In those conditions My drive takes a motivational slip Her drive flips Do you got them medicine? She keep riddlin' and there's no real focus They listenin' to a joker Smile, intents be loaded Night staying dark Surround my existence Surreality of a high road Twisted my vision On the colonialistic with a vice grip on my shift stick Jesus, take the wheel, my influence gets me impaired God, take the helm of my internal affairs She don't want you caught in the cross hairs But shoot, Behind the smoking gun, she wants you Her fingers cross whenever your paths do The idol lane made I-D-K Or idling what I say Ironically put me on thoughts of a chronic run Listen my son, young one, Off path calling out Emerging scene emergencies Would you make your last love line Your last life line just cause you don’t have a certainty You lost a cause to die for, so are you a lost cause? Cause you wouldn't die for yourself and you can’t see the odds Of a chance to sing your recovery with the choir of your God

Why stay what they made you? You aren't scared of living or death. You're scared of nothing but nothingness And you’re already here You wear the face of your fear Stick your tongue out to what claims to tastes crystal clear Cause it’s laced with what numbed you To anything good that appears. You aren’t scared of living or death. You’re scared of nothing but nothingness And for better or worse, You need your worst to get your best.

What you got left to lose? You want the real sun to shine then, Why stay what they made you?

Watch: http://youtu.be/remB0La0sv8

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Knee Jerk Reaction (Spoken Word) by Audder

I am fighting that I have become what I beheld, because I can only give what was given to me.

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Broads - Miguel ft. Audder

This shit's silly right? You can't find depth no matter how deep you fall for someone short-sighted. Someone who just lacks attention. That's nursery shit. So I sing it like,

Baby, friendly don't make sense When you fuckin' with my head Play me but don't play pretend Broads are short cuts to dead ends...

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"Everything's a fucking trip I need to take a trip from"

- Shoddy Soldier Heartbeat (Childish Gambino Cover)

The re-do. Click here for full lyrics: https://soundcloud.com/audder/shoddy-soldier-heartbeat Instrumental by: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4cxM6O2jdYw

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I would have killed myself a lot last year Man, was it really that long ago? I thought I found somebody Of my dreams, mm mm Lord knows if I'm wrong though Both said that for now we should end it Can't depend on each other if I ain't independent Yeah damn sure that we meant for it Don't know the rules or how to measure it I thought you, God and music are the only ones I level with Like everything else feels so damn irrelevant Like I'm doing it all just for the hell of it Ain't doing nobody else like I'm celibate Tryna handle me and stop being so delicate Manage my mind and be my own delegate  So sick of selling it and telling it To get more intelligent Get off that selfish bit Know that talk was the devil's tip Low bottom lies from the lips of the eloquent That I can't get what I want No matter my helping it Don't even know what I want And when I did I missed it If I got far, do things go ballistic? My fear is I'll bomb or get materialistic Do these clothes fit the fabric of my own existence? Does my name only sound good if it's top listed? Did I really change or just forgot that I wished it? Or things changed living life without you If dying is gain and life is to lose Then a sacrifice of love is the heaven I choose And everything is alright.

Somewhere between psychotic and iconic Somewhere between I want it and I got it Somewhere between I'm sober and I'm lifted Somewhere between a mistress and commitment But I stay down, oo I always stay down Get down, have you lay down Promise to break everybody off before I break down Everyone just wait now So much on my plate now Dreams that I believed in they don't even show their face now What they got to say now? Nothing they can say now ... It's whatever. Living good feeling better If I was numb to it last year Maybe I can't feel it more than ever Nothing really changed but they all look away now What more can I say now? What more can I say now? You might feel like nothing was the same Some things kill me less, I guess that's gain though Act like I'm still on my game though But I still been drinking on the low Reminscin' on the low Prayin on the low Tryin not to worry everybody that I know The furthest thing from perfect Like everyone I know

Instrumental: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RngpI_pG42k