#authenticcode

[radioactivecold]

Stepping into authenticity for me has revolved around allowing myself to get wrapped up into new passions, being seen, creating, freedom, and spirituality. This code is the core of who I am and how I am representing myself to the world. Getting truly honest with what I want and who I am.

[defensiveqi]

a quick check in

I hope this post finds you well. 

I have been very disconnected from my center and the feeling of my reach. Honestly, I might even be feeling discouraged. Summer has been slow. I am creating a private practice from the ground up and it's been a struggle. I am, however, grateful for the support I have received from community. But I will not sugar coat, because I've been feeling really low. 

The past few weeks I have been met with endless frustrations, deadlines, more deadlines after those deadlines, and embarrassing moments on the phone and between verbal communications. Meditation is a practice that feels great when everything is going well, yet how many of us turn to the cushion (floor/chair/etc.) whenever we are upset? When we are disconnected from center? When we feel stressed, rushed, or afraid? How many of us hang on to fear as an excuse from following our authentic path? How many of us forget to pause before reacting when we really feel at our lowest.  How many of us can genuinely close our eyes in a moment of fear or aversion and like what we see in ourselves? 

I hope in sharing my vulnerability and struggle I can encourage you to notice what arises when you are really going through it. What feelings, emotions, thoughts, and moods arise? How do they allow you or prevent you from living your most authentic code?