#authorial rambles

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My very good friend and I went to Barnes today. It's our monthly ritual, we meet halfway, go to lunch, and head over to lust after books.

She showed me Flowers in the Attic and immediately went into how wrong it is.

In my head, I was like, girl, I ship Wincest.

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I'm back!

Let me catch up and slowly ease back into social media.

I've missed y'all. I'm going through the feels of an intense heartbreak, but also going through a milestone, new chapter of my life. It's very confusing and like emotional whiplash.

But, you know what they say...

Carry on, my wayward son.

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Progress!!

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I turn 38 today!

Ridiculous. It snuck up on me.

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Cynthia Mooseknuckle!!!

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just finished writing the latest photo op chapter. and it has smut. really really fun smut to write.

it feels good to see sentences on the once-blank page.

like, really good.

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She was "helping."

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j and i stayed up talking for almost four? hours until i sent him to bed an hour ago. it's 3a here and i am wide awake

i got to read some of j's poetry and omg it is so good holy shit

j helped me draft the end of Model so i can put that fic to rest after all these years

we talked about time travel and how even if i can explain the "how" of time travel, i still need to give information about time itself

he painted my nails and i accidentally got acetone on the table. my mother is going to kill me. i am going to have to get this treated by a professional. i haven't had this table for more than six months and i already hurt it :(

i will call a restoration place later this morning *facepalm*

this past weekend has been so refreshing for my soul. i feel so lucky and grateful that i have the boys. they're getting married next year!! they are so in love and take care of each other <3

i'm going to try and make it out to albany in september

we're going for brekkie then they're leaving at around noon. i'm gonna miss them. i wish we all lived closer. but i have travel credits, so i'm gonna use 'em soon enough to go seem them

there has been this tinge of sadness and hurt as i remember what i was doing one year ago with h. i flew to see him and we had a long weekend to celebrate my birthday. he treated me to a scenic railway ride. i still have the souvenir glass

big sigh

you know, it's been 1 year since i've had my job. 6 months since i moved into my home. 6 months since my partner h and i broke up

crazy what can happen in 6 months

i also know that some... 10 years ago, my then-partner e gave me a book for a present. it was a personalized collection of letters from my friends. it's a beautiful book and i still have it

e also had one of my fics printed and bound like a book. that is super special to me

anyway.

i really feel like slow dancing with someone right now.

i would love to go back to the green mill

or maybe i am looking forward to going to the green mill

j has been teaching me how to reframe things

i've had such a great weekend with my friends.

and i am over the moon that i get to host folks now. that makes me so happy.

also, holy crap, i turn 38 in 2 days

that just snuck up on me, didn't it?