Hyperhidrosis
So, yesterday I went to the doctors about this condition I’ve had for years, but was too embarrassed to tell anyone about, and he diagnosed me with hyperhidrosis. I’ve been looking online at all the other posts people have made about this condition, and this is what I’ve kinda noticed. I feel like there are a lot of posts about hyperhidrosis in the feet, and hands, but not a lot about hyperhidrosis in your armpits. So this is my experience.
It was terrifying telling someone about it, I just felt gross. I’m used to people laughing at me, and pointing out pit stains. I have a wardrobe full of tops I love, but I refuse to wear because I know they will have stains in minutes. To the point where I convinced everyone around me that I’m not a “hug person”. I fucking love hugs, but I’m so scared of hugging someone and them noticing how wet my top it etc. I refuse to take off my jacket most of the time, but then on a bad day, I sweat through that too. It’s absolutely humiliating going into the bathroom, or somewhere with a mirror and seeing gigantic pit stains on your jacket, after you’ve been sat there thinking you’re fine. Most people choose their outfits based on what looks cute, I have to pick based on what will and won’t show sweat. Even whilst shopping for new tops, I have to take a bottle of water with me, so I can check if clothes are sweat proof or not.
I already have anxiety, but this condition has really increased it and made it worse. It feels weird to finally talk about this shit because I now know I’m not the only one who goes through it.
But I went to the doctors, and he was so nice and comforting. He assured me that it wasn’t gross, and was nothing to be embarrassed about. He told me many people struggle with the condition, so I wasn’t alone with it. He prescribed me a roll on to apply at night. So I put it on last night, not having much hope that it would do anything, but oh my fucking God. For the first time in years I am sat in my room watching tv, and my pits are dry. I don’t feel gross, or like I need a shower, my clothes aren’t soaking wet, or have stains on them. I’m literally crying right now because I finally feel normal for the first time in years. I don’t know how long this stuff is gonna continue working for, but I’m just so happy that there is something to control it for at least a while.