May 22
everyone being patient with me ily tysm i've just not felt the desire to speak to anyone in a few months LOL like having to be social irl drains me and then a man had the audacity to ask if i ever wanted to get tea with him and i said oh okay maybe sure perhaps someday just to be polite you know and did not set a day and today i hid upstairs at work to pack herbs bc i knew he'd be back today LOOOL like he comes every weds/thurs usually but anyway looking into changing my weds/thurs hours to 10-2 or finding a new job because i'll be damned LSDKJBCKSJADB
#avoidance final boss#i would sooner quit my job than have to regularly see someone ever again#is that healthy#no#but unfortunately i'm insane#like i'm sorry i'm just naturally friendly 😭😭😭😭#and i'm not very talkative irl but i'm good at being bubbly because that IS my default but the problem is#it's so much more draining in person esp when some people LOVE to talk LIKE#WILL HOLD YOU HOSTAGE FOR A CONVERSATION and sometimes it's about crazy shit#anyway this guy is definitely at least 15 years older than me there's no way he's not#if he's not then i'll be shocked#but i hope whatever his intention is it's just friendly because#even if i wasn't aroace ! NOT MY TYPE!#i just really don't like being acknowledged by men </3333#especially irl </333333333333333333333#bro was like i'm free this sunday#and i lied and said i'm going out of town#i'll be out of town on saturday but. LMAO.#like he's a regular at my job and he's very nice so i was like sure to be polite u know#but. i will be saving my herb-packing for the hours of 2-4 on weds/thurs until my boss gets back from her trip#and i can ask about changing my hours LOL#i'm not a morning person and i really don't want to work in the morning but#i'd rather work in the morning than speak to a man#ooc.#tbd.