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crine you all should check out @awesomegaskblog ..

def don’t own it.. or anything..

it’s really cool.. yknow..

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This will go unseen because i don’t have the passwords to your account but what the fuck ever. I need a way to cope.

I miss you. I miss you more than you might have ever realized. I’ve gone through every conversation we’ve ever had, mapped out everything i should have done, every way i could have saved you. If i had just listened for once instead of pushing aside your genuine problems maybe i wouldn’t be alone, wouldn’t be going through all this, wouldn’t have had to move out to get away from the sight of your stuff. 

I know you’ll never see this. Im really just doing this for myself, peace of mind that i left a last message in some way. 

I already forgot your name. Honestly i think i forgot before you even died. Same with you… generally. I really wish i’d taken photos of us together. 

You hated photos though. Maybe thats why i didnt.

sorry. 

-your favorite (only) brother

I’m sorry

I miss you .

Please don’t forget me.

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will i be free

home i want home

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post-death,

how do you feel about your brother? knowing how he's struggling to cope with such a sudden loss?

he hasn't gone outside in weeks. too scared he'll see something to remind him of you.

do you feel guilt? pity? or maybe something else entirely?

I .

Do you Anons like to see me suffer?

I feel,I feel horrible of course I do. He was already a mess before I had to ‘leave’ .

but now?

from what I guessed he’s gotten worse.

I worry.

I can’t help but blame myself, this was my own foolishness.

i’m so sorry.

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It’s been so long ?

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I cannot feel my insides.

They are gone .

scooped out and mashed up into food for someone else’s gluttony.