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[loathingreflection]

@ayanxmi ♥’d.

there is a sense of jealousy that twists around her heart at every instance that rei occupies gendo’s attention. that disgusting green monster fills her with anger & pity when she spots her beloved’s hand upon the gray haired girls shoulder, an inward longing of such carefree affection had been addressed to her instead of that doll.

then...disgust soon follows. it sets deep within her stomach as vivid memories flash into her mind of her mother straggling a younger rei to death before tossing herself over to her die on top of her own MAGI. certainly ritsuko should suppress that likeness, but every mirrored action & feeling...she finds herself disappointed that she had simply picked up where her mother had ended. a twisted way of following a parents footsteps in a disgusting likeness.

& yet she is self aware enough that she can bury that hatred, even if it’s all for the pathetic need for gendo’s approval and esteem.

❝ rei, it’s time for your evaluation. i want to make sure that you’ve recovered fully, alright ? ❞

[thiirdboy]

►►@ayanxmi​ → CALL.

▐░▒▓ ►► 「  ɴᴏ. 03 ; 」

     ❝ DO YOU REALLY

               think it’s that obvious? ❞ Of course she does. Rei wouldn’t lie. And if even she can be up front about matters of the heart such as this, there’s no question how obvious it is. Shinji heaves a sigh. ❝ I mean...I just don’t really know what to do about it, I guess. ❞

[sonnenge]

@ayanxmi

 sync tests were over and asuka sat in the changing rooms, eyes narrowed and legs swinging. today had... happened, she supposed. another peaceful day. another boring day. no angels. no school drama. no conflict. dull. oh well, she supposed. time to make some excitement herself. a flash of blue in the corner of her eye. her lip curled.

     ‘how’d you feel about my excellent sync rate, huh, First?? isn’t it higher than your’s??’

[giijutsu-blog]

@ayanxmi

‘ Human’s piloting robots? That would just make it some kinda toy or something. Real machines to be robots would need to have their own free will and control. ‘

[shadowchosen-a]

@ayanxmi.

                A simple fact: it’s raining outside. The kind of downpour that makes it feel like the sky is crying, the rain coming down in sheets and then drops in turns. If he were inside, the pitter patter against the pavement would be SOOTHING but, as it happens, he is very much stuck outside. Luckily, he had an umbrella, but another simple fact is this: that girl does not. He walks towards her without another thought and stops near her. There is conscious space kept between them for the sake of comfort, but he holds out his umbrella so she is entirely covered, in spite of him half getting soaked.  ❝ Are you alright? ❞

[oncforall-moved]

@ayanxmi

    ‘ e-excuse me...’    he addresses the girl in front of him shakily, eyes darting to her feet as he attempted to get his words out. scratching at his head to try and ease himself, he tried once more.      ‘  i---i’m Izuku.  d--don’t know w-why i felt the need t-to give you my name b-but, uhm...y-you looked kind of sad and---and i wanted to know if you wanted to talk.  I---i’m not hitting on you i--i promise. n-not that hitting on you i-is a bad thing i--i mean you’re very pretty a-and i’m sure you’re a great person! b-but the p-purpose of this is just t-to..to ask if you wanted s-some of my Mochi.  i--i don’t want it anymore and--- i-i’m sorry can i start over? ‘

[sonnenge]

ayanxmi replied to your post: auxiliums replied to your post : ...

’ you aren’t wrong, second. ‘

     ‘AHA!! when the almighty first child stoops to agree with me i really must be right!!’

[test-type-archived]

 Pale  and  ostensibly  unreachable,  while  the  girl  reminded  others  of  herself  when  Yui  sees  Rei  she  thinks  of  something  else.  Something  she  longs  for  with  giddy  nostalgia.     ❛ Did  he  ever  tell  you  about  snow? ❜      It  comes  out  seemingly  out  of  the  blue  and  with  no  explicit  specification  as  to  who  she  refers  to  though  it  goes  tacitly  implied  ——  an  unknowingly  instinct  assumption  of  her  behalf  that  Rei  would  pick  up  on  the  subtlety.  Still,  the  question  is  audibly  purposeful  in  intention  and  excited  at  the  prospect  of  winter  days  being  once  more  for  her  children  to  see  for  themselves.  She  knows  it  is  unlikely  she'd  get  to  see  them  playing  in  the  snow  as  she  could've  in  another  life,  but  to  see  them  at  all  is  gift  of  its  own.  Her  heart  pours  into  a  smile  with  that  thought.     ❛ I  think  you'd  like  it  better  than  the  unbearable  summer  hot. ❜       //    @ayanxmi