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Hey so anyone who was following my old blog ( @sunflowertrans ) might have noticed a few things

my pronouns on this blog are different

my gender in my about is ‘no’

i’ve dropped calling myself ‘boy’

i tagged a selfie of mine as ‘agender’

So why is that? I mean last you heard i was a well-adjusted trans guy, almost 8 months on T, so what's going on? Whats going on is basically: i plan to stop taking hormones and am unsure of how will label myself from here on out. For now, i’m going with Agender but i don’t know how long that will last.

The truth is, although i don’t identify with being a girl at all, i felt more forced into the binary than anything else. Im not uncomfortable with the way my body is 8 months into HRT but im concerned that much longer will do more harm than good. I want you to know, that this is heartbreaking for me. It’s not easy to do and honestly, i feel like i let the trans community down. When it comes down to it, my happiness is one of my highest priorities and I always try to do what will make me happy. It’s hard to know, though, exactly what that is. But based on personal feelings I think that for who I am now, this is the best choice.

I’m sick of trying to be ‘one or the other’ when I am neither. I want to wear skirts and have short hair, i want to eat an entire taco at once, i want to shave my leg hair, dye my armpit hair green, I want to be unapologetically, fully, me.