I think I prefer Tumblr more than Bluesky when it comes to looking at art
I'm starting to prefer Tumblr more so when it comes to looking at art. I think I'm just rather burnt out on Bluesky due to all the issues I've had with it in the past, from being cyberstalked to being falsely accused of using AI, despite never having used AI for any of my work.
Just because I can tell when AI is abused, doesn't mean I use it for myself. It's getting rather wild on there, so I haven't been on there as much. I've heard that people are looking for alternatives because they simply want to enjoy the art. I started using SheezyArt instead since I needed a break.
It's been nice so far. Here's a link to my Sheezyart if anyone wants to check it out: Azurry's Sheezyart. It reminds me of my old DeviantArt days. So, it's been nice to just relax and look at art. I missed that.
I still got a backlog of artwork to go through, I'll try to get through some of it tonight since I have been cleaning up and organizing my folders all this week because of how messy was, but yeah, just wanted to update my Tumblr real quick! <3
Reorganizing and cleaning up my page here. I'm excited to use Tumblr more soon. <3
I thought it would be a good time to start reorganizing my Tumblr page as well as looking for a new Tumblr theme. I like the one I have, but it feels outdated. I'm wondering if I could use this place to promote my work as well as post new drawings/paintings here. It's been such a long time since I posted here properly.
I want to get back into it again. First things first, it needs a major cleanup so I'll let y'all know when it's done. I've been meaning to do this for a very long time now, it's just hard to manage so many social media at once, but I'm working on managing that much better.
I'm just gonna have to prioritize and since I've gotten rid of Twitter it's been easier. That being said, I'm also excited to focus on my art more, as well as posting sketches again like I did eight years ago when I first started posting a lot again. I really missed that. I hope y'all are enjoying the Holidays and having a good day! :^D
I thought I should write a quick post here. As some of y'all know, I've been having PC issues, and I think my motherboard is dead. I did what I could with what I have and backed up all my artwork and important documents. There's not much I can do about that except swap it out or get a new PC. It's quite old at this point, and it's showing its age.
It's a shame, really, but it happens. I'm just glad I have my phone, Kindle, and old Dell latitude e6400 for now until I can replace it. Which may be some months before I can with the cost of living and bills, it's hard. I do have a Kofi. Any penny helps if y'all can spare anything, of course. If y'all click on the membership, y'all can get hires stuff.
The only thing, though, that the website is limited with NSFW is that the artistic nude is okay, but my Casca pinup that I got the okay to post in public now from the zine. I don't think I can post it to Kofi, so it'll most likely be on Substar and Patreon. I'll write a follow-up post linking those. I just wanted to post an update here since it has been a while. Thank y'all for reading, and I help y'all have a nice day!💗
I'm missing my old fandoms... + an update on what I've been working on
I miss N+C and MDZS mostly. So, I may start drawing/painting some stuff for it, just like old times. Those fandoms had a lot of ups and downs in the past, but I feel like I learned a lot from them. I don't have any resentment for ex-friends or anything. I just hope they're doing well.
It's a waste of time to do that because it takes joy and peace away from me, so it's best to move on, accept what happened, and let go is how I deal with things. It isn't worth so much space in my mind.
Once I finish this cyberstalking video (Most likely will be finished in July), the reason why it's taking so long is the editing part. Some people don't want to get involved in public drama, and neither do I, but the problem is that there's some racial bias, sexism, and harassment going on.
I had to privatize my Toyhouse more so since I had a huge issue with cyberstalkers. I've heard of people having that problem in the fandoms I mentioned, but I never thought I would have to deal with it myself, especially with my small following.
It's disgusting how often times with these issues, there's zero self-awareness. A person can't say they're the ones being bullied when they made a whole account to start shit with people, that's not only hypocritical, but really dumb and it really reminds me of the Shino situation that happened in the MDZS fandom years ago.
It's taken a lot of time, but I can now safely get my speed painting set up, as well as the receipts that I need to add in this video. It's going good. I appreciate the support in this whole mess, so let's wrap this up, shall we? ;^3
I'll just write a personal update for a bit to vent. Unfortunately, my journal about the Cyberstalker stuff that I reported got deleted, but I do have a backup of it. I'll for sure keep my cool this time when writing the rewrite, which I planned to anyway. I know I got quite a bit heated, and I should have taken the time to calm down first before writing it.
I don't think I can report it here sadly with Deviantart's strict rules. I don't see how I broke any of Deviantart's rules. If I did then, I'm really sorry about that. I haven't checked Deviantart's rules in a bit. So I'll review them.
That's on me if I did break some rules, and I'll take full responsibility for that. I know on Furaffinity I read that you can't mention the person's name, even though what the person was doing was a crime. So I did delete the copy of that journal on FA because of their rules. it's for sure a messy area to report.
I sent a support ticket because I wrote that PSA for a reason. I know I was upset and I'll admit was rude to this person that was being rude to me. Also, has been cyberstalking me for a very long time. They for sure hold a nasty grudge to be honest. It's not normal what they did and it's really concerning so that's why I made that document. I didn't want anyone else to get hurt.
On Bluesky this person just came out of nowhere back in November last year, and now I'm dealing with some people accusing my art of being AI which I'll explain in a different journal. I realize I need to start reporting this stuff on YouTube and TikTok. Those places don't seem to have an issue with this, but again I'll keep my cool this time around.
So it's some rough times for me for sure, but I won't give up. I know in the past people have had issues reporting cyberstalkers for their crimes because of how messy social media can be. I have to keep my cool regardless what it is when reporting this stuff, it's for sure a sensitive situation.
Hmm... So what should I do y'all? If you have any advice, then please, let me know what I can do. That being said, this was the last month I was gonna talk about it for now, and that journal was honestly stressful to write, so I have mixed feelings about it being deleted here.
It is what it is. I'm not upset about it. I'll for sure still keep posting here and I'm just glad Deviantart didn't delete my account and did give me a fair warning. I'm grateful to that. <3
I'm very nuanced with fandom discourse so I guess I'm not neutral after all since I'm not centrist ♡
I spent a bit on Twitter, I know yikes right? It's not really as bad as it was on there. I think it's pretty divided with the rotten apples, but bad people are everywhere so it's best to ignore them most of the time.
I just block and report. I'll just leave it at that. There's no point in worrying about it it's a waste of time. There are more important things to worry about.
I don't really care anymore if I'm misunderstood or not. I have friends that support me and care, so that's enough for me to keep moving forward. I got this. If y'all want to read more it's under the cut. I don't want to take up too much space on y'alls timeline. Social media is supposed to be fun so let's make it fun.
Recently there's been a lot of drama on Bluesky with the proship and anti-spaces... A good friend of mine was concerned about this, and unfortunately, these moderation lists have caused proshippers to be against each other. I do wonder who made these terms... It feels like more stuff is added for people to be against each other. It feels wrong.
Years ago, I always avoided this drama on Twitter because it's for sure mostly pretty dumb. I mean, proshippers make good points about anti-censorship and how it would make stuff bland and boring, I don't want my stuff to be bland. I want some seasoning on that shit... That's what makes Berserk so good and why I love it so much.
The only good points that antis make are stuff that's harmful like propaganda, hateart, and y'all get the gist of it I'm sure. Sometimes fiction mirrors real life and I get that, but with that way of thinking we wouldn't have Twilight. That was my guilty pleasure as a teen, lol. They both have a point, but a lot of the time there's drama over stupid stuff.
Last month, I was accused of being an anti because I was harassed by someone gross, and I called them out and this is when I had an issue with proshippers... It is really irritating and I'll be lying if I said I wasn't upset about it. I felt like I didn't like these people very much... They're causing drama for no reason.
They were saying I'm annoying because I vented about being harassed. Some of these people need help. I realized proshipper doesn't necessarily mean a good person. I'm anti-harassment myself, so it sucks to be accused of it. Some of them are just dumb, and aren't worth talking to.
They're really unpleasant in my experience. That being said, I don't have an issue with chill proshippers. I'm friends with some. It's just frustrating having to deal with this. On Bluesky, I'm still on an annoying people list... And I'm like don't you mean people you hate?
I would rather be blocked than put on a list over something so petty. It's really a shame what happened to fandom spaces, but that doesn't mean I can't have my own healthy fandom space. This is why I'm working on building a safe space.
This is why I'm neither proship nor anti. That's watering down a wonderful fandom space. I feel like it'll be a lot of work, but I think it'll be worth it to keep moving forward and have fun like I did back in 2016. I really just want to post art again, chat, and get to know my friends better. I missed that.♡
Heya, y'all. I just wanted to write a quick journal about my experiences with Bluesky. It's been fun most of the time there, and it's gotten better since I started listening to some tips. So here's what I've learned when it comes to being on Bluesky for the last few months I've been very active.
In my experience, it's best to ignore any unpleasant stuff, and just block and report the serious stuff. It's not really worth the time of day. I'm hoping Bluesky can hire more staff to help with the bot issue, but no site is perfect, and it's best not to let rotten apples win and have their way. Pretty much any website can be fun to be on.
Moderation lists can be helpful, but sadly it's been abused, and I've been put on not so pleasant ones so, I decided to make my own lists of those people that are sadly abusing lists. I made these to keep people informed. I feel that that's the best I can do so more people can't get hurt.
It sucks to be misunderstood in the past few months, but I'm glad there is people that I can talk to that understand where I'm coming from. It's been really helpful since I know how unreasonable some people can be, but I also realize that these people don't know me or my life, so it's best to not take it personally.
Here's my moderation lists I made so far that I made: Misunderstandings and the abuse of lists, Fascists, Stalkers, harassers, and people that don't have a life. My only regret is not doing this sooner. The reason I didn't is because I didn't want to be mean, but it's unfortunately necessary for me so I can stay safe.
Also, here's some pleasant lists that I was able to make to keep up with artists and mutuals: Wholesome people, and Aspire to inspire. I may make one more list, I'm just not sure what yet. That being said, it's been pretty pleasant lately, and also having a thick skin. I can't let every little bad thing get to me, I just gotta keep moving forward. Here's the link to my Bluesky page: https://bsky.app/profile/azurewhitewind.bsky.social I would love to follow any mutuals if y'all have a account there.
I'm still here, I've just been a bit slow so far this year. That being said, I hope this helps anyone that wants to use Bluesky, but isn't sure yet. I just would use it just like every other site, be aware of your surroundings, and it's just common sense really. I'll write a more fun journal about my art projects soon. I just wanted to get this out of the way. Have fun and good luck, y'all! <3
I need to take care of myself. I've been thinking about it and I haven't been feeling social media much even before the harassment and stalking issues. I do a lot of game testing, so I think that's also why too, which I also had my Steam account almost stolen from me back in November... November last year was just a huge mess in general. So, It isn't anything y'all have done, but I'll be taking a break for a while from social media to take care of myself. I think I need a digital detox as well as a general social media one.
I get that people are telling me to be positive and that they think I'm not listening, but I do get where they're coming from, it's just I don't agree with ignoring the bad things entirely. There needs to be a balance of the good and the bad. I can't just ignore all the bad stuff that's happening online and around me. It's really overwhelming and ignoring how I feel is unhealthy. I don't agree with toxic positivity at all. It does more harm than good. I mean, yeah it's fine to want to be positive, have fun, and focus on life I get that, but again balance is important.
My life lately hasn't been balanced. It's been hard at home. Clearly just ignoring bad stuff hasn't been helping me, it actually has made it worse in my experience. I need to take care of some things. So I'll write my last journal for a while. That being said, I think it's important to have good friends that one can talk to about these things. And thankfully, I do know some people I can talk to. Just lately online, Bluesky hasn't been that great for me, and this isn't a knock against it, I understand the staff is doing the best they can and that no website is perfect, I get that.
I just feel like I'm not really heard at all when I talk about these things with some people. Some people really don't understand nuance. I don't want to feel like I'm walking on eggshells and for a while now I felt that way with people not even bothering to hear me out on Bluesky. It's just been a lot of drama, and some serious stuff on the side. I'll see how I feel in a month from now. I should feel fine after some rest and space. It's nothing personal or anything. Anyway, stay safe y'all, and take care of yourselves. Good luck.
