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[urfriendlysadboii]

Someday Someone will want you And I won’t be able to compare And I won’t be able to fight back Because how can I fight against Your happiness? How could I claim to love you If I take away your smile?

[spellboundary]

i was at w’s house for k’s birthday party. it was getting too late for me to take the bus and i didn’t want to bother l even if it was a dream. t2 was not there, so i said goodbye to k amidst the chaos and walked around the block.

t2 was outside smoking and asked a lot of questions about l and the party and i asked him for a ride home. he said he could only get me partway and i agreed because i could walk from there.

when i got out of the car the dream landscape had changed from a real place to a false one and i couldn’t orient myself. i said goodbye to t and started walking in the direction that corresponded with the direction i would have started walking had the location been correct. i ended up in the hospital parking lot struggling to get out again. once i did get out, i ran up and down strange bridges for the sake of exploration.

upon asking dream entities which way i was supposed to be going, i found out i had gone the opposite direction initially. when i got home the home itself had the layout of the house i lived in in sparks. l was asleep but b had left a cigarette on a table. i went out to the backyard and smoked it. i spent the rest of the dream fretting about what quitting smoking again would entail.

lucidity trigger: w and k wouldn’t throw a party like that.