Panic! At My Disco

Caleb Ryland. 26. Bi as fuck. Coffee Maker and Smoothie Enthusiast. Hopeless romantic. Saddest boi u will ever meet.

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I stopped writing poems about you

Because it broke my heart

To think of more rhymes

& reasons

For why

You couldn’t love me as much as I love you

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Dark skies at midnight Car rides & Cigarettes Wanting to kiss you so bad But never doing it

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& they say that you’re no good But you’re the best I’ll ever get.

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Your smile read as trouble Your laughter, an anchor And your eyes, my savior In the end.

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I love you

& that’s the scariest thing

I’ve ever had to come to terms to

You

Of all the stars in the sky

I could’ve turned to

I just had to pick the sun

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Someday Someone will want you And I won’t be able to compare And I won’t be able to fight back Because how can I fight against Your happiness? How could I claim to love you If I take away your smile?

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My brother He asks me What does the end of the world feel like? It is trembling hands And “How could I ever love you”s

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I should’ve kept my big mouth shut but it’s hard to stay quiet when you think you’re in love

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As I sat there looking for your response To those three silly Bothersome Little words I wondered why I had even given you the power To destroy me The way I was sure So very sure That you would

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I knew you were in love with me. I just couldn’t understand why.

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I’m no one’s favorite.

Favorite friend.

Favorite lover.

Favorite kiss.

Favorite fuck.

And I’m starting to realize

That I need to learn

to be okay with that

Or else I might crash and burn

Over and over again

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Why do I think of you every time that I have sex with him?

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I realized that I was falling for you as you cried And maybe that’s a bit wrong Or cliché or any number of things But that’s how it happened. One look at your water filled greens and I knew I would cross the oceans to make them dry

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How do people stay friends with their exes without hooking up with them whilst broken up? Like I can’t even be friends with someone I haven’t fucked or kissed without thinking what it would be like from time to time and that’s just facts

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I’ll look at you with longing eyes Too shy To admit To wanting you more than you ever did

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I cannot stop thinking about you. I see you in everything I do. The inflections of my voice Start to sound like you. And the color green is every where And it reminds me of your eyes. I cannot stop thinking about you. I see you in everything I do.

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You can try & waste my time but our fate lines are aligned You can try to break my heart but our names are in the stars You can try to steal my love Go ahead & rob me blind You can try & waste my time but our fate lines are aligned