#b.r.u.c.e.

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BIG OL WEEKEND MOOD

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also here's the write up from the paper !!!!!!!

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i love my fucken band

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felt like a rockstar on this tall ass stage everybody bringing me fireball and jell-o shots n shit

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we are B.R.U.C.E. & we are pissed

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i love my band! i love performing! i love my friends! i love my life!!!!'

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B.R.U.C.E. is recording today and it's official af lol

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5/18/18

we're playing our set and its the last song which always fucks me up but i was extra fucked up tonight so when the microphone unplugged and i couldnt fix it i just threw it on the ground and started screaming without it and i was on the ground just screaming at the top of my lungs surrounded by people beating my hand against my chest

when it was over people were fuckin screaming ryan pulled me up off the ground, thigh highs down to my ankles and knees gushing blood there were all these faces around  me saying my name and reachijng out i always dreamed about shit like that i ran outside with my best friends and tried to light a cigarette and started sobbing a first walking in and out of the bar there were still looming faces and hands reaching they were all saying it was great, loved the album, wanna buy a shirt and it was so much so fuckign much i felt like a star but it was fuckedd up i felt like puking and ran back outside and some friends sat me down between them iin a door frame put a joint in my mouth and lit it, such sweethearts and when it was out i was fucking standing up face to the sky yelling at god my mom has fucking cancer

then my favorite band and some of my favorite people were playing and we went inside and i reached nirvana because i almost started sobbing again but instead i fucking danced with my oldest friend just fucking yelling along and jumping all around and the whole crowdd the whole fucking crowd knew every fucking word and every goddamn pause and it was one fluid pulse of bodies all crushing together and ryan and i grabbed each other and stared into each others eyes and said i love you and hugged in the middle of all the dancing drunk kids and i swear to god i dreamed about this shit happening when we were kids i swear we probably looked like we were in love and then in perfect form we went from almost crying in a perfect moment to dancing again and screaming the lyrics at the top of our lungs: "she said she didn't want to be alive i'm not sure that i can even disagree what's the point of doing all these pointless things everything ends the same way anyway"