It sucks waking up to the reality that you never truly had any friends growing up.. that mostly all of them only saw you as a potential girlfriend.. so they left when they realized it was never going to progress from friends to something more..
and it also seriously sucks realizing that your totally normal mom (since middle school) has been turning all of your friends against you by lying to them in order to get dirt on me from them. My mom became so obsessed with trying to find out what kind of stuff I told my friends/ex friends/exes that she would go out of her way to message them… and in order to get them to open up—she would tell them that I had said horrible things about them. Having narcissistic parents has been detrimental to my mental health all of my life and I’m really trying to heal after giving up and cutting them off. I’d love to try to be friends with other people that have/had narcissistic parents